nights out with s25 @ arena on fri

ma la steamboat at bugis on sat

after some thoughts...

the past few days of 'appearing offline' and not blogging gave mi some time to think... and i finally got some 'advancement' in my thoughts... lolz.. the langauge a bit weird... haha... anyway... i may be setting up another blog to hold my deeper thoughts... those that are not quite suitable for the mass public(my frens) as it may cause some conflicts and stuffs... cause a few incidents shows that i've been acting no impulse at times and didn't really consider others feeling and juz blogged abt how i feel only... well at least i dun think i have to hold up any thoughts in my mind for too long... as it will affect my mood and thats not gd for myself... time will tell if tat's a better way for mi to let 'things' out... coz i can't really find anyone who i can talk to abt some private emotional topics... no offences... i really dun have anyone like some of u who get to call ur best frens and chit chat for hours on the phone... u get wat i mean?

I'll be gone for a while...

yesterday was supposed to go PS to watch movie 'Halloween', cause i won the tickets from safra... a pair of tickets, but i went myself... after having dinner, i went up to the ticket counter to collect my GV member card... i took out the letter for collection of the card and i think tat's when i dropped my tickets... yes... i dropped the tickets... and i still went on to buy a drink for the movie! oh dear... haiz... lucky its not the pop corn set... if not i'll be looking like a fool... feeling down and disappointed... i've decided to walk ard orchard area thus heading to taking bus 105 at the end...

the only thing i got myself was jay's new album's pre-order at HMV... the pre-order gift is a 2008 calendar... they are also selling his cartoon toy for ard $50... 'gong zai'...

err... i think i made into this situation and i'm not really comfortable with it... so i guess i'll make myself missing for a while... or shld i say invisible... to sort out stuffs, like studies...

a week or two or more... i'll juz leave the online community(or appear offline on msn) and stop blogging... if u wanna find mi juz sms mi or something... cause even if i stay online/appear online, i've got nothing much to do and everyone is busy with their own life too...

dun wanna say anything more... everytime the more i say, the more i do... things juz dun go the way i wan and gets worse at times...

dun worry abt mi...
take care guys and gals... good luck for ur exams

• if destiny has everything planned out for u, why do ppl still have to work so hard for things that they like or wants? will it change anything along the way?


• quote from liling's comment, ' if the time is right, the one u r seeking will appear'. - tat's quite a commonly said phrase for console ppl when they are down. but what if u r that one in a million that u are destined not to find the person u are waiting for? or u have already missed the chance? isn't it too easy on ur part to say dun worry? - no offence to anyone


• the wait maybe long, but i'm prepared for it... as i say it will be the last...


• i've caused enough trouble for anyone involved including myself... i'm sorry...


• 我的心慢慢变成一个等待招领的失物

My 2nd Elder Bro's ROM

My 2nd Elder Bro's ROM part 1

My 2nd Elder Bro's ROM part 2

Heroes

well... i juz finish watching 23 episodes of HEROES, volume 1... and i can tell u its a really nice show... its cool and exciting... can't wait for the 2nd volume.... btw channel 5 will be air-ing it soon on tv...no wonder this show is very popular ard...

i baked cookies today... still got a whole container of it u any wanna try.. lolz... think this batch was quite ok... not much of burnt as last time... due to the stickiness of the dough, i still can't shape the cookies round nicely... btw... these are from instant mixed cookie package... i dun have any good recipe to do one from scratch yet... hehe... juz mix the package with butter and egg and u have a cookie dough... haha...

made another pouch today... spending less time but its a larger piece of work... coz my mum want's it... haha... failed to study today as i promised... well... guess i will make myself to wake up early tml to study... catch up on things... revise... and maybe prepare for my PBF test on thurs... though i nt sure if i can pass it... but i shall try anyway...

distractions...

wait...

guardian...

my new hp pouch

i made this new pouch yesterday night(friday 11pm-2am)... coz i recently lost one(the one with a transparent cover, tat peter ho! have some part in making mi lose it..! lolz) and my 1st ever hand made pouch wore out and a big hole was resulted at the bottom of it... thus last saturday when i wanted to check my hp, my pda dropped out of the pouch and and landed on the floor in pieces.... bt nt much harm caused ba... hopefully... anyway for his time... i'm using a different system to tighten the pouch, as in the close/seal ur stuffs in the pouch... i'm gathering info from my frens to make them one also... err... for x-mas gift ba... a small appreciation i guess... only selected few... hehe... have to see whether u have been naughty or good this past yr lor... waahaha... think tat's all for now ba... but its nvr easy...

Merseyside Derby

well... the red half won the game.. it was quite scrappy though with 2 second half penalty giving liverpool a 2-1 win at everton's home ground...

why i said it was scrappy..? well... i'm still not seeing a squad tat's capable of winning the league yet... the past few games was all draws and losses.... tat's not wat a title winning team is abt is it?

wat benitaz said before the match was tat he rather lose the everton game if it meant winning the league... but i can say tat if u lose such a game u are one step closer to losing out the league title too... tat's so naive of him to say tat....

anyway gerrard won the 1st penalty for us before he was sub off... bt their play thru-out was quite messy... they kept using long passes out of their own territory... thus losing lots of possesion... well... if sloppy play can we us the title... i dun mind... coz chelsea did it before...

i get the point of this, but i will still support it...

There's something i need to sort out before i carry on the latter part of my life

*this post was edited on 21st oct

usually after deciding on what i'm preparing to write, it will take another while before i start putting my thoughts to words... by then.. my thoughts are scrambled 70% and i have to do some recollections... make one such post a few hours of time...

This is going to be a post where i'll settle on one topic once and for all... i shall not post any related topics again and i'll see to tat promise... as the topic of this post suggest... this is one issue in my life that's yet to be solved... and its quite a sensitive one... its abt love...(some will start to shift the move to the close browser button, or switching to another blog/websites... hey... i dun blame u and i do encourage u to do so if u dun wanna be bore to death by it...)

i've to admit that i'm shy when it comes to things like this and i have no answers to it... its very easy for u to say change it but... its not... at least for mi...

all my life(since i've come to sense) i'm just trying to find that special someone that i can talk with... maybe listen to mi singing love songs or singing duet together... cook for her... watch a movie together... enjoy nice long walks in the night... maybe join her on a shopping trips, walking ard(well the most important thing is being happy and staying so... its common that there maybe ups and downs thru-out but that's life and i'm willing to go through it...

well i have to clarify that i'm not trying to be in love or fall in love of the sake of experiencing the above... such things are for life... i dunno how good a person i am or how am i as a person to you friends... all i can say is i'm true to my frens... i can be very generous to my frens especially those that mean alot to mi... i can be there for u but not asking the same from u... i love all my frens as they meant alot to mi other than my parents... i can say that if anything happens to either, i'll be in a total lost as i'm such a emotional person within... (a fine example would be tat time when i forget to bring my themometer to sch in jc, my mum was called in for a talk with the principle... my mum end up tearing coming out, with threats of dispelling mi from sch initially, and i naturally cry with my mum swearing that such sch are better not be in if they make my mum tear... i came back to class still watery in the eyes, but i guessed u guys nvr remember it ba... actually no one knows abt this incident ba) ok.. tat was a bit side tracked.... but the point is i treasured but my parents and my frens... anything that happened to my frens i do feel for them...

maybe i'm not wu zhun or liang chao wei or any where near as handsome ba... the only part that i get to play is to fall in love with someone, but that person maybe liking someone else...(sound like those dramas, huh? lolz) gals i like is either through first sight or constant contacts in class... well... the most important thing is the feel(感觉, its like 孙燕姿sings 感觉对了我要出发)... if not for this 感觉, there won't be anything to start with also... dun ask mi why i like this gal or tat gal... i will only tell you its my 感觉, or from my 1st look at her, it sets my destiny... then the subsequent contacts justify my feelings... but all this count for nothing as its juz my own feeling... a relationship is still both sided... any side no willing the other can't do nothing also... and i like to mention that if u dun like mi at least tell mi, or give some clue... ignoring and and saying anything doesn't help at all, if that's ur way of avoiding... at least the pain is not nvr ending...

想太多... i admit i like to think alot... coz when u are alone and u got no one to talk to... who else but yourself can u talk to? haha... dun worry... i haven reach the stage of insane or split personality... thinking let mi analyst things... but i dunno why i'm always ending up getting up... maybe i do things a little too much... a little to rush... biao cuo qing, hui cuo yi...? i think a person like mi not having a gf maybe all destined...

hence i've came up with this phrase, "i've learnt not to expect too much from the nothing that's started with... the more i try, the more i'll feel hurt..." the more i wanna expect it to happen... the more i doesn't... maybe those whom have read till here maybe scared off by mi already... haha... but i still got to say it all out... coz i'll nt make another post like it....

all these while i've been keeping only myself known of who i've like... only occasionally does some close frens get to know or saw thru from some little acts of mine... but everytime i wanna get closer to the person... i always mess things up... one is they dun like mi or treat mi nothing more than a fren... another maybe a approach things wrongly... also maybe they have other ideal partners in their mind that's better than mi in all aspects...

but what i can provide... i dun think i'm romantic... i'm also not very good with my words... my tongue is not honey coated lor... hehe... all i can give is my truthful heart... comparison doesn't help but worsen things, so dun compare mi with other guys... we are different in our own ways and so are every gals...

i'm currently lacking motivation and a target in life... hopefully i pick things up and carry on for the better... less of tinkering, wondering, assuming... more on putting it to work, to practise, to use... may all my frens find their love ones and be truely in love with each other...

tat's all... and good bye... thanks for everything... those who hear mi out in the past and those who are always in the loop of things... hehe...(i'll not care wat demoralising things any of u may write in my tag board or msn to mi) for all i care, i wanna stay happy and smiling from now on... and going out with frens will be tat remedy i seek?

oh ya... did i mentioned that it has been 3yrs since i started blogging...? haha... quite cool... hopefully i can bring more happening post in the future...

F.I.R. - 爱·歌姬

歌曲：三个心愿
歌手：f.i.r. 专辑：爱·歌姬
LRC歌词 HOT• 搜索 "三个心愿"mp3 打印预览

沁:
我喜欢你的眼神温柔又危险
请不要戴上眼镜我会看不见
想要张开双手把你宝贝
想和你天天见面
想带你环游世界

飞:
我喜欢你爱逞强苯苯的笑脸
在心中抬头挺胸坚定的信念
这个辽阔世界不够完美
但有了你在我身边
什么都很ok

副歌(合唱):
第一个心愿为你把幸福堆积
天涯到海角头发到呼吸
第二个心愿给你最好的自己
再许个心愿我的爱把你占领
哦~~~

沁:
为什么为了小事就要掉眼泪
好象有太多的事只能自己背
其实只要你说一句ok
现在就立刻马上变成你的superman

飞:
这世上最重要的不止是誓言
只要你常常记得亲亲我的脸
我会永远记得这个今天
还有很久的那一天
我也要有你陪下

一个心愿给你最好的自己

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歌曲：需要你的爱
歌手：F.I.R 飞儿乐团 信乐团阿信

当你选择了云的距离
就让我我至此做决定　
冲破天际飞去
还想到快崩塌的回忆
也许我可以袭击我的心　
痛得不能自己
或许你以为把这一座城市抛开
就可以纠结伤害
却不明白
我需要你的爱
不管多少阻碍
不求什么未来
不管命运会怎么安排
我会用眼泪洗去所有的不堪
狠狠地把心痛了断
深深地把一切重来
我需要你的爱
像掉进了深海
也像坠落悬崖
找不到地方逃开
别让那些谎言把爱给活埋
当心碎成一块一块
当爱碎曾一断一断
我会等待 你的爱

.-'-..-'-..-'-..-'-..-'-..-'-..-'-..-'-..-'-..-'-..-'-..-'-..-'-..-'-..-'-..-'-..-'-..-'-..-'-..-'-.

just went to pluck my wisdom tooth this morning... well... the process is smooth... all i can say is the drilling is very annoying.... the pulling of the upper tooth was really painful... the process was ard half and hour ba.. coz i reach at 9.15, left before 10.30... after that i went to find peter... chat for a while then i head home... on my way back the pain starts to kick in... i have to endure the pain... calming myself with music until i reach home and took the pain killers... there's still some pain now... but not as worse as it was in the afternoon...

李玖哲 - 想太多

歌曲：想太多
歌手：李玖哲
LRC歌词 HOT• 搜索 "想太多"mp3 打印预览

你笑着说 他是朋友

但你眼中太温柔

我的不安 那么沉重 只有你不懂

他霸占了你的心中 属于我的角落

所以你说 我们不是你和我

是我想太多 你总这样说

但你却没有真的心疼我

是我想太多 我也这样说

这是唯一能安慰我的理由

他霸占了你的心中 属于我的角落

所以你说 我们不是你和我

是我想太多 你总这样说但

你却没有真的心疼我

是我想太多 我也这样说

这是唯一能安慰我的理由

我想我没有 错怪了什么

虽然你不说 或许错在我

太晚我才懂 爱了你太多

是我想太多 你总这样说

但你却没有 真的心疼我

是我想太多 我也这样说

这是唯一能安慰我的理由

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maybe alot of u have already know tat i sing a lot of sad songs during k-box... well... maybe its juz that these songs have more meaningful and beautiful lyrics than others... making it sad in a beautiful and soothing way... also maybe its best discribe my current feeling best... i also like to sing out wat i wanna say... hopefully tat somehow tat person can hear my voice, my heart...

#*#*#*#*#*#*#*#*#*#*#*#*#*#*#*#*#*#*#*#*#*#*#*#*#*#*

• How many times in life does a person need to fall in love just to find that special someone that's willing to walk side-by-side with you for the rest of your life?
• How many heartbreaks can a person take to realise that maybe your persistent is misused?
• How many years does it take for one to realise that its always the initial one thats been at your side all along but you misses it the first time round?
• Is it time to break through the shy nature and be brave for once? or is it going to be another incident where you get 'hurt' and 'misunderstood'/'think too much' again...

on the funny side - 阿杜 差一點（中獎版)

i found this while trying to see if i can get any of the songs below... quite funny and 'home-ly' and close to everyone's heart... waahaha...

阿杜 - 专辑名 '差一点 '

intro u guys and gals to 阿杜's new album... here's the 2 song i find very nice... so far... as i always say... song's lyrics are the best to descibe my feeling... they are sometimes the words that u can say out, but sung out for u in ur heart... can u feel wat i'm feeling...?

the first song sings abt ones limitation in love? sometimes when u are in love with a person, but u have tried every way but nothing will change her tots abt u or even make her fall in love with u... even god can't change how u wanna love or who u wanna love... so juz let nature take its course....

歌曲：爱上谁
歌手：阿杜 专辑：撒野
LRC歌词 HOT• 搜索 "爱上谁"mp3 打印预览

雨冰冷的雨
洗不掉你的泪水

我无措的我

只能看着你枯萎

伤害安慰

还有我对你的心碎

太傻太乱太过疲惫

我无法说服你也无法改变你爱上谁

只是看着盼望着是场错

oh~~

天无法告诉我也无法改变我去爱谁

只能这样让雨水稀释了痛的感觉

雨冰冷的雨

洗不掉你的泪水

我无措的我

只能看着你枯萎

伤害安慰

还有我对你的心碎

太傻太乱太过疲惫

我无法说服你也无法改变你爱上谁

只是看着盼望着是场错

oh~~

天无法告诉我

也无法改变我去爱谁

只能这样让雨水

稀释了痛的感觉

我无法说服你

也无法改变你爱上谁

只是看着盼望着是场错 oh~~

天无法告诉我

也无法改变我去爱谁

只能这样让雨

水稀释了痛的感觉

我无法说服你

也无法改变你爱上谁

天无法告诉我

也无法改变我去爱谁

只能这样让雨水

稀释了痛的感觉

~~end~~

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the second song here sings abt triangle/multiple-angle love but of the 3(or more) person inside it... u are the only one tat's one sided... 'she loves him, he loves her, but who loves mi???' one sided love is always a terrible feeling... i noe... hehe... but wat else can u do but suffer in silence... let the rain washes away the tears, the pain... but at the same time wishes the best for her...

歌曲：单向的爱
歌手：阿杜 专辑：撒野
LRC歌词 HOT• 搜索 "单向的爱"mp3 打印预览

冰块溶化要等多久

双手温度都冷了

沉默了一个小时又一分钟

空气窒息在空中心情被心冷冻

你又再喝了一杯酒

这一次你想哭了吗

坚持了一小时又一分钟

眼泪被锁在眼中连我都感觉到疼痛

单向的爱情混乱两人的世界

你爱他 他爱她 谁爱我

我在你心中总是路过

连作梦都嫌太沉重

单向的爱情注定两人的暧昧

雨是雨 或是泪 又如何

别想太多我至少爱过

你幸福就足够

你又再喝了一杯酒

这一次你想哭了吗

坚持了一小时又一分钟

眼泪被锁在眼中

连我都感觉到疼痛

单向的爱情混乱两人的世界

你爱他 他爱她 谁爱我

我在你心中总是路过

连作梦都嫌太沉重

单向的爱情注定两人的暧昧

雨是雨 或是泪 又如何

别想太多我至少爱过

你幸福就足够

单向的爱情注定两人的暧昧

雨是雨 或是泪 又如何

别想太多我至少爱过

你幸福就足够

别想太多我至少爱过

你幸福就足够

~~end~~

Ming wei 21st birthday 7 - be4 getting wet edition

Ming wei 21st birthday 7 - swimming pool edition

Ming wei 21st birthday 6

Ming wei 21st birthday 5

Ming wei 21st birthday 4

Ming wei 21st birthday 3

Ming wei 21st birthday 2

Ming wei 21st birthday 1

Songs intro...

范玮琪 - 哲学家 - 你只有一个

你看你眉头都打结了
你熟悉的坚韧到哪去了
别因时光而磨损

快找回那自信的眼神
不要因为爱错了一个人
就否决爱美好的可能
不管如何 都不要忘记你是最好的
要相信 你绝对有幸福的资格

你只有一个独一无二
他不懂珍惜是他太笨
有多少人等着
要做你最最在乎的人

你只有一个那么独特
你值得你期盼的快乐
当你不再非他不可了
他会知道失去的多难得

一定会找到珍惜你的人 全世界就非要你不可

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4.倔强

词:Wonderful

曲:小王子

编曲:蔡柯俊

你曾说雨下的时候别低下头

要等候奇迹降落

我不懂曾想一起拥抱的彩虹

为什麽只剩下我

※原来呀爱情是不会留下什麽

只留下残缺的我

能不能再把你的爱借点给我

好让我继续飘流

我的倔强?疯狂?无法?逞强?流浪?

是否只剩一人在寂寞争吵

你的模样?说谎?眼光?装傻?躲藏?

我逃亡

repeat ※ ＃＊

我的倔强?迷惘?去闯彷徨?悲伤?

是否应该不计一切去抵抗

你的模样不像?遗忘?飘荡?摇晃?我投降

wisdom tooth extraction imminent...

juz came back from NUH dental centre... impending extraction date will be on 9th Nov, same day admission and surgery and a night stay-over... gonna extraction 4 at the same time... get it over with and i can enjoy december holiday period rather than having the other 2 teeth being extracted mid dec...

as of now... i decide to continue blogging... hehe... until i ord... then i'll decide again... right now i'll be doing the same thing... intro songs and blogging pics taken during gatherings... right now i'm listening to quite a few new albums... so if there's anything nice i wanna share i'll put it up with the lyrics...

my shopping list for the end of the year:
1) a pair or two of jeans/long pants
2) a liverpool jacket
3) maybe a dvd writer for my com
4) some wall mounted shelves and corkboard/whiteboard for my empty walls... i need some extra storage spaces...