L.O.V.E

err... y i'm so concerned about not getting replies is tat i dun like being kept in the dark... or should i say sometimes an answer i very important to mi than a question mark...
ranting... hmm... seems like i like to do tat quite a lot and some ppl maybe sick of it when they see on my blog... maybe i got nothing else better to do than to bring such topics to post... even if i do post on the blog on wat my frens should treat mi... those i wanna relay the msg to dun visit my blog... besides... most of my fren dun need to either...

wat is love..? i dunno... i've never experience it... as in BGR...

"我 爱 的 人, 却 不 爱 我. 爱 我 的 人, 不 告 诉 我. "

liking a person is easy... but to love a person takes time and courage... coz there will always be complications that need to be tackled...

wat is 'like'..? to mi 'like' is a level where the foundation starts as fren... liking a person doesn't mean u have to be with her... being in a relationship... it can be liking the person as a fren... becoz the person is nice and have a lot of good characters... u care about the person and are concern of her well being... if i see tat person has a sad msn title... i will ask the person wat's wrong...? can i help...

then wat is 'love'...? well... love is liking a person to another level... where u really care for her well being and thinking of the person every now and then... whether it can turn into a relationship depends on both the person involved... it takes 2 hand to clap... so if the other dun have to same feeling... might as well be secretly in love urself... sometimes letting the person knows will make the situation more sour... well.. at least tat's wat i experienced...

if one lacks a certain quality or aspect... it will be more tough to get together with the person u love... moreover it still depends on wat qualities the person is looking out for too... well.... this may not be true to others...

one sided love is tiring but i'm still willing to wait... maybe time is a factor...
juz to say tat i'm not desperate for a gf... everyone crave to have someone to care for and be loved... i'm no different... err... dun feel like saying anymore...

anyone is free to comment... but i may not respond to every comments... even if i dun respond doesn't mean i'm of any wrong or anything...

Wat more can i do as a fren...?

All these years have past... i'm always changing... learning.. adapting... try to be a better person... a better fren... but so far... how many true frens can i call upon when i need someone to chat with...? ur guess is as good as mine... coz i have no idea... one thing is tat there are not many...

i noe there are still a few ppl constantly visiting my blog... and i thks u all...

but as much as i try to care for a fren... i dun get appreciated...? maybe they think i'm busy body or something... "y dun u mind ur own business and stop asking questions about mi"... maybe tat's wat they are thinking when i wan an update of themselves to mi...

normally i'll shoot a couple of questions at once in a SMS... occasionally... i dun get the full answers... most of the time i'll have to ask again coz they tend to reply onli the last question or one of it... some... dun even wanna reply... maybe they dun feel the need... maybe dun wanna reply... maybe they dun even like u... wat for reply..?

why..? is there any answers to tat...? this kind of questions can cause mi to think on nite in bed and hard to get to slp...

i'm tired... i'm sick(really sick... i got fever 37.7deg, running nose, blocked nose) i really dunno wat else i can do... i'm going to be in tekong most of the time and when i do book out... i hope tat i can go out with frens instead of stuck at home... but its not really happening this week... i dunno why... haiz... i have nothing else to say even though there are plenty of things in my mind... i'll blog about another thing tml... hopefully she reads it or someone can pass the msg to her...

I got a Fever, its hot it can't be stop...

err... actually it did stopped... this morning... feeling a little unwell.. so took out the thermometer and 'woah'... its 38 degrees... lolz...

was supposed to meet up to go beach road buy army stuffs with my bunk mates... but copied the wrong number.. so can't contact them... end up my buddy called mi... but i was too sick to go... so he help mi buy lor...

after tat took a panador and went to take a nap... try to sweat it out... managed to reduce the temp to 37.5deg... in the afternoon... asked my mum to bring back porridge to eat... then followed her to 'si ma lu' there to 'tui' my legs... was also treated to electric treatment... quite painful... actually after a few days of rest... the leg doesn't hurt much le... so no need to bandage with medicine... but the electric treatment make my leg more painful with on my way home... sian½...

'tekong cough'... and tekong water... making mi sick... still coughing and sneezing away like nobody's business... running nose and block nose is back to haunt mi... the last few days at tekong... i was also haunted with hiccups... dunno y... maybe due to the medicines given by the MO...

someone... somebody.. i wanna go out and have fun leh... so sian and tekong... now come back le still stuck at home... pls... haiz... especially with so many sickness haunting mi... haiz..

guess who's back...?

lolz... lame... but i'm back... from tekong... for the next 3 days....
booking in on sunday night 2045 at pasi ris bus interchange...

things i noticed...
1) there will always be some bastards in ur platoon or ur section... those everytime reach bunk will whip out their hp and msg gf and call them... shouting for no reason and bad attitude.. lolz... luckily non have my blog add yet.. ahaha.. so i can say all their bad stuffs here... haha... 'somebody' treat NS as chalet... wanna plan bring tibits to camp for night snacks... haiz...

2) u can sweep and wipe all day... and there will still be dust lying around waiting for ur Sgt to 'f' during Stand By Area or Bed...

3) the most common word in tekong... the 'F' word... and more obscene languages.. haha...

4) the food there is too make ppl fat lor...

5) ppl dun treat their area cleaning duties seriously... err.. some of them... i'm always the one sweeping the ever dusty floor... and not being credited... haiz... think their life before is too easy...

reached home about 2140hrs... carried the black chaffer bag(carried as backpack style) all the way home... except on the mrt... tried.... damn tried... but i still need ppl to call mi when i'm free and they are free too... pls... send mi a sms in advance to book time slots... haha... serious...

greetings from jeff

hihi, i m PL.. lol.. but i m here not to post my pretty pics.. jeff has some words to spread, he say hes getting bored in camp, so ask u guys if free can call him to tok.. but do sms him in advance to let him knw.. hope his injuries are getting better now.. =) kk i guess tts all for now!

Happy Birthday to ******... As i won't be around to wish u happy birthday... hope u have a fun time with ur frens...

Also... the march birthday babies also include Daniel weng... li ying... and lay ping... bt dun think they read my blog also.. if u see them.. ask them come and see my wishes for them... have dun... the Happy Birth Day song by 阿信 is for u all...

The Post of All Post...

(PS: PL will be helping mi look after the blog while i'm gone... so dun try anything funny or chu any pattern.. hehe... thankz)
(PS(again): Someone asked about how Curlyface came about... well... i'll juz say briefly lor...
initially my fren, Edric, uses a happy face drawing... which is juz straight lines... then my another fren, evan, have his own trademark characters... so i thought y not i have mi own... then came curlyface and curlyevolu... coz i think the happy face is quite nice.. so i make changes to it and made it my own trademark... )

No one can blog forever without the the motivation of visitors and supporters and frens... but someday, these will diminish and you will lose the will to carry on blogging... its a tiring task to carry out... constantly trying to create new and interesting topics or recalling stuffs to blog... the former and latter are both as hard...

I've been repeating again and again... whine and whine about not getting enough comments or lack of readership... but its still true to a certain extend... i've created more than 200+ posts already... lets have a recap...

Its starts with my thoughts after my 1st yr in jj... questioning myself y i started writing this blog...? my failed attempt at promo... ... ... till this last post... can't list them all out can i...? well basically it can be classified into different types...
1) Jeff's profiles, know more about mi... and a little abt my frens..
2) Pictures recap, on all those pics taken from gathering or thru my hp's cam...
3) Chinese song lyrics, started singing k while in jc... but really like songs all my life
4) My thoughts on various subjects...
5) Those online test on myselfs and other misc. stuffs

Well... this blog has been like a fren... a companion... been through ups and downs with mi... now i really need a human version of it... someone tat i can talk to... guess its really hard...

By the time some of u reading this post... i'll already be out of singapore mainland and onto Survival: Pulau Tekong... lolz... u'll nvr noe how it is there unless u experience it urself... so i'm gonna experience it 1st and whether i can adapt well with this new life...

As from pervious post... i did set out things to be carried out... sadly... none of it is fully achieved...
1)Sentosa...? i wasn't even close to tat place... was wishing to go there... feel the sun for the last time and maybe play volleyball and the new stuffs at sentosa...

2)Sports...? basketball..? soccer..? nvr really get going... like once for each with poor attendances... when will there ever be full attendance..? quality is more important than quantity... but the right amt of quantity is still important too...

3) Sing K... hmm... the usual ppl lor... wm and hq... other than tat i haven really sang with any of my new frens... mw is officially the sad song king... haha... all the songs he chose were those sad love songs... lolz... even the last k box session with a few of the jc frens didn't came thru as there was some mis-communication and everyone else tot that it was cancelled without confirming it with others... so i was rather disappointed lor...

4) wat r the changes in mi..? err... i dunno... have i talked more..? become less quiet..? becoming less introvert..? hmm... u judge it...

5) didn't catch any movie at all... either there's nothing nice or plans to watch was scrapped at the last min...

6) all the cheese and chocolate fondue are still waiting for mi... i really dunno when i'll get tehe chance to taste them... onli managed to eat something different like pasta during the small 2/5 gathering(different as in eating once in a while)...

If there's anything u wanna tell mi or ask mi out... u onli have today and tml to do so... otherwise... err... u have to 2weeks+ later...

but till now.. i still dunno whether i should try and apply to uni for those less popular courses... coz if i wanna study at SIM.. i might not have enuff money to pay for the sch fees... ard $22800 for 3 yrs... ah... sian½...

Going into unfamiliar places still with some un-settled businesses... who can i call to when i'm alone at camp...?

Will i be missed when i'm no longer online...? the poll above the music player in this blog is quite discouraging... of the 4 votes... 2 didn't even noe i was online... 1 dun even care about mi... thankz then.. i think this poll bring negativity to this blog...

After 13 yrs of schooling... i dun think i've ever made myself work hard enuff for a good result... with the exception of PSLE... i think my O & A-level are not the true indiction of my potential... hopefully in Uni i can excel...

here are somemore things u might not know about mi...
1) i love to take pics... most of time on other ppl and scenaries... but after my pri sch fren lost my camara... i stop photography... until i got my 1st hp camara N7250 in JC1... i'm back into pics taking... actually i still have a stack of photographs taken during pri sch days... 10+ albums...?

2) i used to go for a jog with my aunt while i was still living back in teck whye lane... from my house jogged to the park ard cck then head towards the Mac near cck interchange, which is now the 24hrs coffeeshop... mac has since moved to Lot 1...
Also... back when i was still living in teck whye... i used to ride my bike ard the neighbourhood whenever i'm free... as my place was on a small hill... its quite tiring to cycle back up... but tat's not the pt... i used to cycle to my mom's work place at a bakery at the market place nearby... then go there eat some bread leftovers... as in those brown crust being cut off, so the white bread are sold... i also used to cycle to Lot1 and place arcade...
talking about arcade... my most played game was Time Crisis 2... mastered it during sec sch... i dun usually play those video games tat much... think its waste of money... so i dun visit much of arcade at all these days...
while i was in kindergarden... i love to eat 1 kind of bread... think its pandan bread... green in colour.. eat it plainly... love it.. haha.. another thing i like to eat back then was the chicken rice at the coffeeshop on another block on the same hill... haha... yup... roasted chicken rice with braised egg... $2.30... egg back then onli cost 30cents... now so ex le...

3) I also love animals... though i dun think i have any as pet before... so far dun think i'm scared of any of them... some of my frens scared of dogs, cats and snakes... i feel tat if u dun provoke them in the 1st place... there's nothing to be afraid of...

4) I liked to take part in competition when i was young... like the ice cream eating competition... lolz.. blind-folded and fast the ice-cream as fast as possible... and i won.. haha... err.. think won $20-$50 bucks of voucher ba... and in recent yrs... those from M1... won like movie tix, pastamana vouchers... all those minor prizes... the biggest price i've got was during grad nite's lucky draw... got a watch, Lanvin, brand from paris, ard 100 bucks ba... lolz...

As i promised this will be the post of all post.. its going to be very long... hopefully i still have others things to crap about... coz i wan it to last reading to the next 2 weeks... haha...

I see that some ppl stopped blogging all together after their JC life... why is tat so..? u can still blog...? maybe time is a luxury no one can really spare nowadays... i doubt i have time to blog too... maybe its going to be my last few posts as well... so far... these are the blogs tat have gone dead... or nearly there...
1) lay ping, the last post was Wednesday, April 20, 2005, she say dun use com tat much and forgetten her password also... lolz..
2) wanni, the blog's been deleted le ba..?
3) xiu ling, 30.05.05 - 7:15 pm
4) hou quan, Tuesday, August 09, 2005, think he rather spend his time gaming than blog.. haha
5) kevin, Sunday, September 25, 2005, nvr really got it going there...
6) ming wei, Sunday, August 28, 2005, poor readership..? like mine..?
7) Pak 八 个 轮, Friday, June 17, 2005
8) ******, Monday, March 06, 2006, officially ended the post as the person wanna have a nice ending to jc life... started in jc to let frens know her life...
9) Jeff Tan. 7/8 march 2006?...

well.. i dun suggest ppl to really close the blog down... maybe can change it into a photo gallery... display pics u taken instead of typing out words... coz a picture is worth a thousand words... agree..?

Since i started putting a counter to track those ppl who visited my blog back in Monday, July 4, 2005... it currently reads juz over 3400... of it i can say i clocked the most... how much of it i not sure... but ppl mainly juz come and go... i dun even know who was here and spent their precious time reading... thankz for ur effort... really appreciate it...

this blog has grow with mi... from a plain template from blogger... i've added tagboard(CurlyTalk)... flicker photo album(Curly Album)... polls(Curly Polls)... tracking counter(Curly Hits) and a music player.... there's also the regular change of font and backgrd colours to pictures as background... maybe not as nice as others cause i dunno about programming and dun wish to use those customised template..

By the time i'm typing this line... i've applied to NTU... err.. juz to try my luck lor... dun think will get in anyway... but no harm trying... if i got thru becoz of the essay... then need to thank that person... coz i used him as a topic to write on.. haha...

btw... i mentioned tat my room was painted sky blue with white sponging effects... i realised that i did it the wrong way... coz i looked like a painting disaster coz like the blue paint didn't cover the white backgrd(my bro said tat)... actually... the right should be started with sky blue backgrd...(the blue colour i used not wat i wanted..) use the special sponge and dip out pattern of clouds for example and the uses a soft brush to blur the white paint... then u will have the cloudy effects... saw how it was done from one of those house makeover shows on channel 5...

oh dear.. my brain is blank now... err... well... guess nothing goes on forever.. is has to end somehow... All my frens i have already thank them in another post... hmm... nothing else to write le...
guess i'll end it with more things about mi.. haha...

1) my eye sight is quite poor due the the damages done by watching too much tv too close and staring at the computer... each eyes ard 500 degree with astigmatism... i still have 3-4 pairs of contact lens left... putting it on onli on certain occasions...
2) Height varies from 1.68m to 1.69m... lolz... y can break the 1.70m barrier...?
3) right handed, right footed...
4) shoe size ard UK 9
5) likes to write calligraphy on christmas cards to frens... so far i haven used it on any other uses... coz my words also not tat neat...
6) dun think anyone noticed i shaved my moustache... lolz... quite un-important.. haha.. sry... my hair(head) started as normal... to center parting... to side parting... then botak.. haha...

tat's all... goodbyes folkes... hoped u have endure till this long juz to read it... hahaha...

jeremy and shui jing acting gay... 

Taken while playing pool... kh making a shot.. and tat's my yea hand sign... haha.. szeling, peiling and kc learning the act of pool from us tat day as well... they sure have potentials... lolz.. 

the most decent of all pics... 

the guys and sze ling... 

The guys acting shuai...  

The Most act cute pic...(so regretted taking it... ruin my image... lolz..) 

The guys taking pic with pl... can u tell wat 2 letters they are creating at the backgrd..? lolz... 

a Small gathering with my sec sch frens... There's jeremy, ka ho, kuan chuan, pei ling, shui jing and sze ling.... The pic taken after we had dinner at PastaMania at orchard cine and playing pool... taken at the fountain infront of taka... ps: they like to act cute... lolz..

tat's the pairof tickets tat got us in to the exbition... i won it from a New Paper contest... there's a 3D glass tat was used to view the clip by FIFA... and the wristband for entry recognition...(it have a coke bottle shape and words: We all speak football.) 

tat's mw being challenged to FIFA 06 by a small boy on the new XBox 360... mw played the 1st half and drew 1-1... i replaced him at 2nd half and won it 2-1... haha... 

Err... quite blur... taken my my N6260 on the pic taken the place... that's the closest anyone can get to the actual trophy... pure standing beside it and taking the free pic... no touching...! 

A closer view at the Solid Gold Trophy... security personals are closeby...  

The World Cup Trophy...! 

My Handwriting Analysis...

******* The Analysis Starts Here *******
For a graphologist, the spacing on the page reflects the writer's attitude toward their own world and relationship to things in his or her own space. If the inputted data was correct Tan has no white space or margins on a typical sheet of paper. Tan fills up every last inch on the top, right, left, and bottom. Hmmm. If this is true, then Tan has a very aggressive personality toward others and quite frankly lacks a bit of respect for the space and property of other people. I would be surprised if Tan just comes into someone's home and helps himself to a drink in the refrigerator. This can be both an obnoxious personality trait and it can be assertive and effective in getting what you want. There isn't much fear of getting in trouble here, Tan finds plenty of reasons to break the rules and get in trouble. (Okay, perhaps when he was younger, not anymore?) Basically, people with no margins are a handful. (not tat true)

Tan has a healthy imagination and displays a fair amount of trust. He lets new people into his circle of friends. He uses his imagination to understand new ideas, things, and people. (true)

Something is incomplete in Tan's life. He feels frustration relating to his physical needs and desires. Somewhere in his life there is some disappointment, non-fulfillment, and interruption. This is very likely to relate to Tan's sexual needs. (-_-")

Tan is a practical person whose goals are planned, practical, and down to earth. This is typical of people with normal healthy self-esteem. He needs to visualize the end of a project before he starts. he finds joy in anticipation and planning. Notice that I said he plans everything he is going to do, that doesn't necessarily mean things go as planned. Tan basically feels good about himself. He has a positive self-esteem which contributes to his success. He feels he has the ability to achieve anything he sets his mind to. However, he sets his goals using practicality-- not too "out of reach". He has enough self-confidence to leave a bad situation, yet, he will not take great risks, as they relate to his goals. A good esteem is one key to a happy life. Although there is room for improvement in the confidence catagery, his self-perception is better than average. (hmm ok)

In reference to Tan's mental abilities, he has a very investigating and creating mind. He investigates projects rapidly because he is curious about many things. He gets involved in many projects that seem good at the beginning, but he soon must slow down and look at all the angles. He probably gets too many things going at once. When Tan slows down, then he becomes more creative than before. Since it takes time to be creative, he must slow down to do it. He then decides what projects he has time to finish. Thus he finishes at a slower pace than when he started the project. He has the best of two kinds of minds. One is the quick investigating mind. The other is the creative mind. His mind thinks quick and rapidly in the investigative mode. He can learn quicker, investigate more, and think faster. Tan can then switch into his low gear. When he is in the slower mode, he can be creative, remember longer and stack facts in a logical manner. He is more logical this way and can climb mental mountains with a much better grip. (nice...)

Tan will be candid and direct when expressing his opinion. He will tell them what he thinks if they ask for it, whether they like it or not. So, if they don't really want his opinion, don't ask for it! (ok...)

Tan uses judgment to make decisions. He is ruled by his head, not his heart. He is a cool, collected person who is usually unexpressive emotionally. Some may see him as unemotional. He does have emotions but has no need to express them. He is withdrawn into himself and enjoys being alone. The circumstances when Tan does express emotions include: extreme anger, extreme passion, and tremendous stress. If someone gets him mad enough to tell him off, he will not be sorry about it later. He puts a mark in his mind when someone angers him. He keeps track of these marks and when he hits that last mark he will let them know they have gone too far. He is ruled somewhat by self-interest. All his conclusions are made without outside emotional influence. He is very level-headed and will remain calm in an emergency situation. In a situation where other people might get hysterical, he has poise. Tan will work more efficiently if given space and time to be alone. He would rather not be surrounded by people constantly. In a relationship, he will show his love by the things he does rather than by the things he says. Saying "I love you" is not a needed routine because he feels his mate should already know. The only exception to this is if he has logically concluded that it is best for his mate to hear him express his love verbally. Tan is not subject to emotional appeals. If someone is selling a product to him, they will need to present only the facts. They should present them from a standpoint of his sound judgment. He will not be taken in by an emotional story about someone else. He will meet emergencies without getting hysterical and he will always ask "Is this best for me?"

People that write their letters in an average height and average size are moderate in their ability to interact socially. According to the data input, Tan doesn't write too large or too small, indicating a balanced ability to be social and interact with others.

Tan has a desire for attention. People around Tan will notice this need. He may fulfill this need by a variety of ways depending on his own character. (hmmm...)

Anxious Moment over... here comes the Tough 2 yrs...

I scored badly for my A-lvl... barely pass for all subjects... but still i got 3 A-level and 1 AO level pass... my frens all did quite well... most problem can get to local uni courses... but for mi...? think i'll go to SIM take business... HOpe EveRy OnES tAKing tHeIr resulTS JuZ nOW caN GeT IntO tHe COursEs tHEy WAnt to...

PLEASE dun ask for my results... dun feel like saying it a hundred times over... lolz... i'm fine... no need to worry about mi... thankz...

8 more days till enlistment... yw called and said he will try to get ppl to go out this sunday as a farewell... so ppl pls cooperate... lolz..