失望(disappointed)，绝望(devestated)，渴望 (hunger)

as mention in the title... i totally gave up... i'm fed up with having to go through this over and over again...

失望(disappointed) - disappointed by all these 'so-called' frens of mine... y...? u might ask? these ppl dun even have the basic courtesy to reply a simple SMS of yes or no. wat 's courtesy...? its a A polite gesture or remark(from dictionary.com), and tat is lacking from these ppl. And who are these ppl i'm referring to..? mostly the guys in the NS now... y...? and i tat annoying tat u dun even care to reply my msg...? then wat for reply when i sms to wish ur happy birthday...?(tat's juz an example) even long known fren give mi this kind of problem... open ignorance to mi ah...? if u feel tat tat person maybe u...? dun worry, it may not, moreover u may not be the onli one... on the other hand, i doubt tat any of them will read my blog since they dun even care to reply my sms...

绝望(devestated) - devestated by the disappointment, i decided to hands off on all organisation of meetings, gatherings, outings... wat for waste my sms on these ppl over and over again, waiting for the reply tat will nvr come... i gave up my hope on these ppl liao... though i'm tempermental, most of it is due to them... but i've cooled down over the past few months... i've learnt to control myself over these things... but i'm also one step closer to being friendless... haiz...

渴望 (hunger) - i hunger for someone, frens... someone who i can share my thoughts and feelings... which i doubt it will come from my current batch of frens... which i doubt i'll find any time soon... hunger to improve my life and social circle... haiz...

Weekly updates...

be4 i get to my updates... here's some important news to bloggers...

Singapore has more blogs per capita than most countries...
Bloggers beware: You, too, can be sued for wat u write.
Defamation action can be taken despite disclaimers. the onus is on bloggers to get their facts right. even readers' responses can be faulted under the law.

lolz... so becareful bloggers... wat u post may get u sued... especially ZH... lolz... and watch wat u tag also... lolz..

updates: my class CT has annouced tat she will be retiring be4 our A-lvl... tat means... nothing is confirm as yet... cause she nvr specified when she's retiring... after she finish teaching her syllabus or after her revision...? most probably is after finishing the syllabus...

hmm... is tat good or not...? guess i'm on my own for my revisions...

err... no more news liao... lolz... maths finishing last chapter... phy still got some way to go.. but think finishing either this mth or next... econ also last chapter liao...

i basically failed all my mid-yr tests... maths 33½... phy failed both paper 1 & 2.. econ haven give back... GP... shld be failing... but they onli taking the common test results... so high chances of passing... the pressure is on but i still not feeling any heat yet... as much as i like to study, i can't get myself together to study... haiz...

i'm feeling more and more distanced from my frens... pri, sec and jc... maybe the guys are in camp... maybe the gals have their bf... maybe they have their own frens to accompany... then wat about my frens...? where are they...? haiz... every week go to sch facing the stress of teachers screaming at u... mocking at u... talking down on u...

wat i'm looking forward to was the weekend when i can go out with my frens and ply and have fun... but tat seems more unlikely as mentioned above... their have to spend their times with their love ones... i got none to spend with... lolz... week in week out i'm been talking the same thing over and over again... wat's the point... many ppl juz bypass this blog, few would be patient enuff to read the stupid things i post... u think they care so much... lolz...

i've been thinking... when i'm out with my frens... are we really out together...? am i juz accompanying them or are they juz accompanying mi for the sake tat u opened ur mouth and asked them out... or is it tat i'm juz the extra person with the grp... who bothers if i'm around or not...? though i maybe a man with few words... it seems hard for ppl to have a gd talk with mi...

wat else can i do...?(juz like tat stupid specialist of mine, kept asking mi wat he expect him to do for mi? he's the specialist and still dare to ask this kind of questions, i'm paying the money to command his to do things...? he's supposed to help mi and not ask mi wat to do. crap sia these ppl) stop going out with them...? no i can't... my life revolves around these frens... with them i feel so lonely.. juz like wat i'm feeling now and every other days...

i'm the kind of person who can go out whenever being called upon... unless i really have something on... but wat can i do... nobody calls... no going out... waited the whole week with nothing planned for the weekend... tat's life... everyday trapped at home facing this computer... haiz...

A lesson to be learnt...

Nvr go to K-box during the evening and nite slot... cause it will burn a big hole in ur wallet...!

RULES AND REGULATION: For going out with frens...if u are planning to go k-box

1) Strictly no k-box in the evening and night... it will burn ur wallet...
2) if u think nuts cost peanuts... think again... it cost a bomb...(at least at k-box)
3) K-box is strictly for morning sessions... cause its the cheapest..
4) try to follow ur initial plan... or have control over planning... so u can plan something cheaper than others... lolz... or u may regret...
5) if u think of going k-box at night... dun... u mind as well go eat steamboat or some buffets tat will cost cheaper (kanna cheated $26 at k-box..)
6) if after dinner... u might as well plan for movie or go a fren's house and play overnight... games, cards, better if ur fren has kara O.K...

tat's all... lolz...
P.S: my tagboard like cemetary... can u ppl do some chattings...? thankz...

我的心声

读这的方法特别，有耐性就试着去读吧。

？有没都友朋的谈交能心知个一连了纪年把这何为 ？吗败失么那的真人做我

？好够不得做友朋个这我是还 ？吗题问有格人的我是

，苦诉来友朋找以可都候时的事有人个每

，聊无很我得觉你许或。友朋的样这没却我但

。话里心是都些这但，字些这出打间时种这花

。人别叫我于少数次的门出叫友朋被，觉感的略忽被种一有会都次每

？吧要重不里眼们他在我许或。到不等都复回的本基个一连讯简传

，错不人个这我说常友朋的我 。视重很都友朋个每对我但

？吗的真是但，丑很说会不也的长

。哀悲 。友朋女有没都在现到何为话的样这是果如

，您谢谢 ，友朋的些这完读心耐有能

。声心的我是全完这，是不的们你说在是不并这会误要不但

欧得洋 - 明天的幸福
也许我没拿到满分　还不算是完美的人
所以我比谁都认真　努力赶上你的标准

石康軍 - 《黑夜过后》

曲：石康軍 詞：李曈

我是說真的 你如果累了 別猶豫 隨時都 能來找我
我不善言語 但願意陪你 讓你至少不孤單 渡過難眠的夜晚
不管夜多漫長 天終究會明亮

黑夜過後第一道陽光 是為了融化妳心中的霜
鬧過 哭過 當力氣全耗光 發現妳又愛了一場

黑夜過後的另一個早上 是最後一次和他說晚安
你要相信你比想像勇敢 逃離夜的捆綁奔向日出的方向
(像夜會過 天終究會再亮)