err... lfc won... sg won... i'm bored...

yesterday was boring... went out to NTUC to buy somethings.. went home... play games... fastening the power plug of my computer... nothing much... woke up to found liverpool won by a goal to nil...

today at least got something to do... 1st... met wm at jec mac... then i ate... went to look for his things at NTUC... but cannot find... then searched guardian... no result.... then head on to buy tickets for sg vs myanmar... on the mrt we worked on my econs mcq qns.... lolz... then reached kallang... near national stadium liao then i ask wm... jalan besar is at national stadium meh...? then he say 'sa la'... mis-communication.... he thought i said national stadium was the place to buy the tix... then he comfirm jalan besar at lavender then we took mrt to lavender lor... 1 stop onli...

checked at the map at mrt to confirm our route be4 heading off... reached liao bought 9 tix... then kian teck suddenly wan us to buy... had to go back again to buy one more... luckily sg managed to win 4-3 juz now... so there will be something worth watching for on jan 2... then we head off to west mall to search for wm's thing... then cannot find tat shop... so sat at kopitiam to eat some dessert and he help mi with my maths...

then he head off to rescue 'hostage'... lolz... find jean... then i stay at west mall to wait for kj... 5.30 then he reached... walked a bit then went to sakae sushi to take a sit 1st... ate 2 plates and waited for them to come... then eat here eat there... costed 70+.. i ate like 10plates of $1.90 stuffs... then walked ard... lp came... then walked... went lot 1.... then walked again... then wm found the thing he wan from an unexpected shop... then secretly buy... lolz... then he send lp home... i and kj send jean home... then mi and kj took 176 home...

then on the way home i and kj chatted about sec sch life lor... and now blogging... juz now com's power plug prob again... then dunno who downloading game.... 30% gone... haiz... 200+mb gone...

Soccer... and more soccer... movie...

劉若英(Lau, Rene) - 知道不知道? ("天下無賊"片尾曲)
曲：Copyright Control 詞：姚謙 編：

那天的雲是否都已料到所以腳步才輕巧
以免打優到 我們的時光
因為注定那麼少風 吹著 白雲飄 你到那裡去了
想你的時候喔 抬頭微笑 知道不知道

yup... i juz went to watch A World Without Thieves... was a nice show... touching at the end... this movie is about how evil the world actually is... full of thieves... then how rene liu wanted to stop doing anymore harm for the sake of... keep the truth from the boy with pure heart...
4 out of 5 popcorns for mi...

yesterday... a sunday... was full of soccer action... in the morning... was late for soccer with the guys... need to go toilet... reached there... they were already practising shoot... then tat grp of kids came again... so played... then another grp of ppl came... found out later tat they were ard 22 of age... after playing... the games was dominated by tat grp of ppl... think they juz came out of NS lor... more physical than us... cause he haven even tasted NS yet... they went on unbeaten... then we got screwed by someone in the team lor.. after a while stopped playing... my injury from work was worsen...

went to coffee shop... ate then went home... bandage/wrapped my ankle... still hurting... went to IMM to buy something to eat... finally get to eat the XXL chicken chop again... lolz... then also bought pizza from Giant... then went home and play computer...

after tat... at night... went to rz hse to watch soccer... met mw and wm at coffeeshop... supposed to meet at bus stop at 9.15... but mw wanna use the toilet.. then head for rz hse... watched chelsea vs villa... but i was using his com after feeling bored from watching the game... then wm and mw began playing winning eleven 8 after tat match... played until 1am... then we went down fo supper... bought some drinks... i bought some fries to eat... then head back to rz hse to watch west brom vs LFC....

the match started quite boring... but a clever gerrard long pass found a running riise and he scored from tat... tat started to makes things a little interesting... then came the hadn ball incident.. and how baros missed a penalty easily... and a bad follow up by pongolle... haiz... then the flood gates open... gerrard scored from a free kick... pongolle volleyed home... riise adds a 2nd goal after a thunderess volley... and gracia finished things off... after tat i went home to slp while mw and wm continue playing ps2....

juz now went to pay some bills then head to JEC to watch movie.. jzu got home... think dunno how i will get my hair done...? so sian...

17th day of work... the last...

Its my last day of work... less than 12hrs ago was my last blog entry.. lolz... work up... wanted to buy new paper... but no stock at the shop near my hse... dun see other newspaper as well... dunno today have new paper or not... then found out tat my pay is banked into my account... but dunno y $12 missing from the supposed total amt after working for 10days... i dunno wat happen... maybe CPF... maybe taxes... maybe service charge... see how the others' pay 1st... on the 6th of jan i shld get another $300+ from my 7days of work...

came back home wanted to eat the porridge but my father took the last bowl... so i left home early to go eat at far east plaza... eat BK... then went for work... again it was veri busy when i came... walk here walk there... take orders... take drinks... serve drinks...

my legs started to hurt at 8++pm... but decided to continue since its my last day... but made a blunder... i was preparing the cigar for the customer but in the end... i lighted the wrong side of the cigar... tat's $22+++ wasted... but cannot blame mi lor... i dun smoke... 1st mistake... lolz... other than tat... today was supposed to be over-staffs... but ard 10pm... kuma sent 2 went home... so was there was a slight busy-ness be4 i left... but there's 5 ppl looking after then bar... shld be enuff...

bid everyone farewell and left... will come back one of these days to see them... thankz everyone there for makng my job a nice experience...

16th day of work... zong hao'z hse...

2nd last day of work... was alread busy when i step into the bar... then we work tirelessly... until ard 5++pm be4 the crowd more or less settled down... went for dinner... then work again... was rather quiet from 7 to 9++pm... juz some ppl coming in to smoke or those not from restaruant... ard 10++pm... my leg starting to hurt again... this time its pain until cannot walk... then had to wait till lee come back then can go... left at 11.20+pm...

rushed to MRT... alighted at city hall but forget tat i need to change to another train on a different floor... then blurly take follow the crowd take the train juz opp... wait until eunos then changed train back... by the time i reach boon lay mrt it was already 12.30am...

waited for yw, jean and wj to bring mi to zh hse... then discover tat i was near one of my relative hse with i was visiting quite oftenly when my ah ma(grandmother) was still alive.... tat was more than 5yrs ago... they were already playing... kj... wm... jh... hq... zh and his stead... then we start playing the ultimate number... loser will have to drink a mixed alcoholic drink... i was unlucky twice.... but wj was being a new joiner ended up tying for losing the most.... drank 3times...

then went to zh room to play majong... played 1 rd then hq take over.. then was waiting to use com... after 5 min then went downstairs to get something to eat... walked with wm and jean to shell station to eat cup noodles... and milos... then sat at void deck and finished our food and drinks... talked awhile then went back... after tat sit ard.... laid ard and play some card be4 most were either playing ps2 or slping... then mi and wm was exploring kung fu hustle's webpage and there were stupid flash games on it... played a while then was time to catch early bus home...

decided to go eat breakfast 1st... but Mac dun offer the $2 meal at wkend... so went to coffeeshop... they ordered their food and ate... then went to bus stop seperately... some take 99... some 243 to interchange to change bus i think... after reaching home then slp... tiring... now after near 4hrs slp am blogging now.... less than an hrs time have to go work... last day of work... finally... lolz... hope today everyone will have hang overs from yesterday... then no ppl at the bar... hahaha...

15th day of working... meeting tuan sim..

morning shift again... 3rd last day of work... lolz... kind of happy tat i will once again be free to enjoy my holiday... which doesn't have much days left... and still got work to do... haiz...

hmmm... today was okay... juz tat a period of time suddenly got grps of ppl flooding in... maybe cause they finished their lunch.. then was taken to take stock again... taking the Moet Chandon champagne... after taking 2 trips of 18 boxes of 12 bottles... kok hong say i can go back liao... today was ok... at least 3pm got 2 ppl's shift... so not so busy... nothing much to say about work today... juz like any other day lor...

after work went to check if they bank my pay... but to my disappointment... no... think they really holding it till 25th or 26th... haiz... pw say doing OT doesn't give u pay at all... it give u previlage of claiming hours on another day... meaning u can go home early another day but still earn the pay lor...

then took 190 to BP plaza... was early.. so walked around... then meet tuan sim... his hair look weird lor... still the same... then the gals came... goh hui min... yu qian... amirah... durga... went t food court eat dinners... and desserts... then talk talk lor.. wasn't listening much.. cause still have one of my ear piece on... listening to radio... lolz... was talking about their jobs... life... our classmates... how have they been... after tat i went home 1st... cause tired... after tat i dunno liao...

juz noe tat tuan sim now live at bankit... blk 244... with his brother... a rented place... he say he dun have msn... so u all e-mail him lor... lolz... currently onli received 3 christmas cards... lolz... Kung Fu Hustle is really good la... go watch if u like comedy... "with greater power comes greater responsibility..." copy spiderman...! and the toe stepping..!!! lolz... go watch...!

14th day of work... Kung FU Hustle...

Update: saturday will be my last day of work... after tat i will be available for almost all activities... badminton... bowling... soccer... movies... shopping... grad nite... walk walk... talk talk... blah blah blah...

Today... was rather in a hurry... decided to try taking bus express 502 to work... but was cheated by the imposter 98... cause i thought tat design is 502... but turn out to be 98... then quickly ran to the 99 bus stop.. hoping to intercept the 105, tat was at the opposite bus stop...,at chervon... but 502 suddenly pop out... so hop on to tat lor... had to stand thru out the journey... cause its peak hr... everyone going to work... no seats... was a fast journey... ard 30mins... 105 ard 40mins...

for the whole morning only 3 ppl at the bar... at most... the apple most of the time go in go out... at 1st the bar was veri quiet... 2-3 tables occupied... then ard 2+pm.. i went to help kok hong take stocks... went to beverage store take beers... wines... boxes after boxes... went for 4-5 rounds... 360 bottles of Tiger and heinekan each... hundreds of wines...etc... tiring... then went back to bar and saw tat the bar was getting crowded... cause most of the time its me covering the floor onli... so quite busy...

waiting for the others to come... they came... help the ease my workload... lolz... was waiting for LEe but he juz dun seems to come... i juz went off... then got a call dunno from where... then i msg-ed pw and he told mi i sunday off... so as said above... i worked till saturday then done...

after getting home i decide to catch the sneak preview of Kung Fu HUstle... though watching it alone... i'm used to it liao... this is a muz watch movie for comedy and kung fu lovers... its ridiculously good to watch lor... pure stupidness... madness of fun and laughter... won't wanna say more... u go catch it urself... i'm giving 4¾ popcorns out of 5... near perfect movie for this holiday season... y i dun give a perfect score..? cause there's no sure thing as perfect... and this is the highest i have given this yr...! so round it off and u get a perfect 5...!! lolz... die die muz watch... lolz...

off day no.4...

haiz... so sian... but juz now in the morning went to JE to swim with the guys... yw, wj, pak, wm, zh and max... i was late by 18mins yet i'm the 1st to arrive... u can see how "on time" we are... lolz... we went in ahead with wm and max... changed liao then head to the pool... olympic size 1st.. then to wave pool...

their objective at the wave pool is the see gals la... chio bus... shall not elaborate more on those things they wan to see and saw... we visited the wave pool 3 times... and stayed in the lazy river for quite sometime... mostly they trying out the wrestling moves...superplex, DDT, closeline from hell... etc...

then we went to jacuzzi... then zh was talking veri loudly about how he was blacklisted... then the lifeguard above heard wat he said and called him up.... not scolding him lor... but ask him to be more technical... he say he see those kind of things until sian liao la... blah blah....

then went to olympic pool again and saw zheng qi... i swam 2 laps... one frog one free... then was like diving with the guys... not saying my diving is gd la... but i'm not bad at holding breathe... after tat went to change... those 'adventure' they have at the pool u ask them lor... i was juz enjoying the wave... quite a stupid day lor...

13th day of work...

today was rather slack... but i was rather dumb... i didn't noe tat i was given off day today... and tml... i didn't expect to be give off day so soon after coming back for a day's work from the previous off days... i forget to check the roster yesterday... sian... so i continued to work today lor... hopefully i can get another off day...

back to today... was veri slack lor... most of the time onli 4 tables occupied... did more chatting than working... lolz... kidding la... but when night falls... becomes a little busier... but the others still slacking... wat can i do...? scold them...? i continue to do my work lor... most of the time i change the ash trays... they are getting better... standing guard of the upper area... sian...

dunno wat to do sia... dunno can get another off day or not... dunno where to go on new year's eve... dunno if they can off on 30th... dunno if can celebrate christmas eve and day... sian... dunno can finish my holiday work or not... so many dunno...

12th day of work... LFC vs Toons

Start work after resting for 2 days... went into the manager's office and saw May and Noel... 1st talked to May tat i worked OT the day she took the work hr list... then teold noel tat i will stop work after next week... i told him tat after starting work i dun have time to touch on my sch stuffs... he said... 'disappointing but ok... wat can i say...' then tat's it lor... went to work... was rather empty minded at times... dunno wat to do and wat to do next...

at around 7pm... Lee asked mi and siti if we wanna go back can go.. cause too many staffs at the bar... then siti went back... i stayed until 9.... but during tat period of time alot of things happened... Lee told each of us.... pw, zee and mi to polish the tables... after a while of polishing... the place where pw was blacked out... tat side onli... then i discover tat the cigar display, lamp at cigar area, and the music all out of power... was suspecting pw caused it... dunno wat he do... then after a while later... the whole deli and grill area also black out...

after tat wanted to left already... but had to wait for noel and the chef to leave... i dun wanna leave when he's in there cause i dun wanna leave a bad impression... then while on the bus 195 home.. i looked at my hp then suddenly remembered tat LFC got a match.. then i quickly called wm... he say he at boat quey... then i alighted tat commonwealth mrt... then transferred to raffles place... rushed to the 1st bar there... got in and found the guys... mw, wm, rz.... then score was already newcaslte leading 0-1... then wm offered his seat to mi...

a few minutes after i sat down... a gerrard's corner was coverted in by bramble... after tat an unselfish baros lay the ball for mellor to shoot the ball in... lfc lead the toon into half time... after tat at teh half hr mark... a thru ball by kewell found baros... and he didn't fail liverpool fans by converting into goal... the dribbled padt the keeper and squeeze the ball in... 3-1... after tat it was rather exciting football... nice play up but couldn't convert possession into goals... by both sides...

the game ended 3-1... tat's the Liverpool i supported... the play... the movement... hopefully in this festive season they can maintain this sort of form... get into top 4 and challenge for honours...

Off day - day2...

woke up... play games... then head off to buy clothes... whole set cost $105 after discounts... ok lor... u will see the clothes during grad nite... i dunno how to choose my own clothes... nor do i noe how to help ppl see... sad...

then rushed to JP to meet the hq and the guys for the movie Ocean Twelve... haven even watched ocean eleven be4 lor... so dunno the main outline of the story... the movie was consider... bad... for my taste... cause i usually dun watch this kind of movie... moreover didn't watch the 1st movie... 1st part was funny as in the sense tat the vulgurities were all sensored... then they way they spoke full of cover up for the F word... after tat slowly understand the story... but really not my type of movie... 2½ popcorns out of 5 lor... ok la... 3 out of 5... give face...

after tat went to swensens find the others... lp, wm and jean.. they were done eating already... so we were waiting for wj to come lor... after ordering... we ate... then yw rushed off.. think meeting his family for movie or wat... then as expected... wj finished his food last... to use his food came last is juz an excuse for his slow eating lor... lolz... then we talked a bit.. hq talked about life in ns... after tat bid gd bye to the guys... hq, wj, kj, zh... as they go popular... wj wanna buy the pilates book...

lp took 172... then i took 180 with wm and jean... cause i need to transfer to another bus... 98.... after coming home then play with com... took the potato 'mashed' out of fridge... heat with water and butter and salt and pepper... to make mashed potato.... tasted ok... but there's still small chuncks of potato not mashed...

still thinking if i'm able to let noel finished my work early... as in i wanna worked until the end of next week... cause i think i need the last week of holiday to adjust back to my studying days... and finished all my holiday work... haiz... tml gonna work again...

Off day - day1...

today is the 1st of my 2 off days... went to orchard today... go see movie... National Treasure... but 1st of all met kj and wj at je mrt platform at 1.30pm.... but was 10min late... then after tat took the train to meet yw at clementi mrt... after that head to somerset mrt... we went to the foodcourt of cine to eat lunch... onli mi nad wj bought... the other 2 juz bought drinks... sat there until ard 3+ then went up the the cinema area... waited for the others to come...

those watching are LL, jean, wm and we 4...wm was late... cause he took his own sweet time to come... the 2 gals was also a bit late considering they say they coming liao... after tat... bought family pop-corn... then i finished the whole popcorn on my own... y..? cause i picked salted.. lolz... guess different taste ba... then movie was quite exciting... 2hrs long... i rate it 4 popcorns out of 5... nice movie... all these treasure hunting... makes us wanna hide somethings for our descendants to find... lolz...

after tat walked around... to heeran... saw sun yan zi... but from quite far out... so cannot see face clearly... then walked to OG... centre point... saw a few clothes... for grad nite... but was quite picky... after tat walked jean to somerset mrt... then she went off on her own... then we proceed to taka... walked for a while... cannot find nice clothes... then went to far east... 5th or 6th floor to eat fried rice... wanted to call fried wanton... but one say have... the other say dun have... so sian diao... then dun wan liao...

after look around far east... in the end onli wj bought the clothes... cause tat place onli limited design... then wj took the nicest one... so the others nothing to buy from there... then went to wistma... topshop... cannot find any... cause they still showing the same design... i wanna buy one dark blue or black one... cannot see one i like and cost reasonably... after tat walked around wistma then head for mrt home... sad sia... cannot find one long sleeve shirt today... had to find another time...

now blogging and playing Net Big 2 with the guys,... and gal... spend quite a bit money on food today... hopefully my pay is transected into my account liao...

11th day of work... overslept...

sian... was woken up by the phone call from my mother asking if my brother woken up for work or not.. it was 9.40am... i planned to wake up at 10am... after taking the phone call... i went back to sleep... the next thing i noe it was already 11.19am... sian... dunno y i ddin't hear my HP alarm... either someone off it or i'm soon sound asleep... i'm always suspecting... y can't my alarm wake mi up if i oni take a nap of less than 2 hrs...?

after waking up in shock... i quickly tidy up and rushed to ATM... cause i need to make sure i got money to take cab... the cab was rather fast... i got on the cab at around 11.42... then reached far east plaza at 12... fast... but cost $9.90... somehow i will have to take taxi... if i took taxi home from work earlier... i would have wake up on time to go for work... but i happened differently.... i stayed for OT and take work transport home... then was late for work... haiz...

today i can declare its a slacking day... at any one time there will be at most 5-7 tables occupied... considered there was a couple of rains and drizzles... the crowd was quite thin... onli one manager walked in once... when evening comes... the other part timers and full timers came... then there was like 10 ppl working in the bar lor... siao... near full strength sia... 10 out of 12...

then after after a while at 6++... lee say tat i looked really tired... asked mi to go home 1hr early... to tell the truth... i'm really tired... was thankful tat i was allowed home early... took MRT home... eat noodles... played Vital Sign for a while then i'm here blogging... tml they got 60pax coming in.. good luck...

10th day of work... OT again...

sian... now 3am in the morning liao... juz got home about 20+mins earlier... due to OT... again... on wednesday... the day be4 i work morning shift... again... haiz... wat's up with this lor... the other 3 all off day today... left mi, lee, imuran and zee... 2 floor, 2 bar... how can... somemore it very crowded today lor... the crowd onli clear after 12am... tat's when all the bus service is out liao... sian...

at work... morning also veri little help... onli ina, apple and mi... somemore sometimes we have others things and need to leave the bar.. so not strange to see onli 1 or 2 person in the bar... when night comes... onli left 4... sian½... all seats are already taken... somemore there's a birthday party at half the bar area... ard 20 odd ppl there...

haiz... dun wanna say much liao... juz freaking wore out... legs still hurting... one gd news maybe tat i maybe getting my 1st pay soon... cause May took the working hr list and say tat she's gonna give it earlier... hopefully its for the watever department and will see tat my bank account is 400+++ richer... cause i worked for 10 days liao... plus today... but with the OT... sian... juz drink a hot soup... shiok... now stop blogging liao... need to go slp.... tml working at 12pm...

soccer... 9th day of work...

woked up at 8+am after falling asleep at 2+am... y wake up so early when i can slp like a pig in bed...? cause it's for soccer with my frens la... actually didn't wan to play soccer... juz wanna rest but watke up liao... so go play lor... no harm... but harm is on the way... had stomachache at around 10+am... had to abandon match and rush home... after i finished business went back and they stopped playing liao...

about the soccer today... scored 2 goals during the 1st 2 match... 1st goal: i tackled and gained possession and ran towards goal... and i shoot... and scores... 2nd goal: a neat thru ball by freddy... trapped the ball.. turn... shoot... and scores... but after that the stomachache kicks in and cannot play properly liao...

after their resting... wm, wj, kt and i went to rui zhou house... i juz sit there and watch them play ps2... on the way there someone called and tell mi tat she juz went for a tough interview and was then roaming alone at PS...bored to death... i also cannot rushed down as i got work later...

after staying at rz hse for a while we went to IMM to have lunch... KFC... wm had to leave cause meeting frens... after that i rushed home and bathe and head off to work...

once again the day was overshadowed by unhappy things... but being a serious person at work... i continued my normal work... getting my job done... tat's all i asked for... other ppls' business i dun care already... i had enuff of tat the other day...

at around 6+pm... wm, lp and jean came... i asked them to come... but didn't expect them to really come and have a drink... they ordered ice cappcino, ice chocolate and acuplate(dunno wat drink, its a martini, wm ordered)... they say the martini tasted like medicine..lolz... orange color... then i treated them roasted potatoes... they were being kind and choose a cheap bar snack... thankz... they sat there chatting... having a laugh... in the end they spent $47+... sry...

dunno y.. i envy them lor... cause i dun have frens like tat, whom will call u to tell u their 'xin shi'.. their life... 1 or 2 good frens tat will come out together often like they do lor... i'm always with a big grp of ppl... i'm not saying tat's not gd... its veri fun being with them... but sometimes i really juz need 1 or 2 or a small grp of true frens tat we can go out together and have a nice meals and decent chat... haiz... i noe tat there are ppl out there that care about mi... and i thankz u...

after they left about 9+... the crowd came flooding in... almost flooded the place... but its crowded... i dun wish to comment any more on the ppl working a tthe bad... who's nice, good, bad... i can see veri clearly... no point saying out... other than doing my work seriously... i dun wish to talk about it... after tat quickly rushed to change and head home...

the pain is coming back to my legs... maybe the pain managed to overcome the effects of the insole... i really dunno if i wan to continue working anymore... but committments are forcing mi to earn some money... haiz... see how lor...

8th day of work...

i can 90% confirm tat my insole is helping to ease the pain of my foot during work... dun get those extreme pains anymore...

today went to job on time... maybe a little early... unexpected... lolz... today got a new gal at work... called siti... she was transferred from the restaruant into the bar... one think i dun like is tat she's not veri... how shld i put it... ask her to take order from customers... she dun wan... most of the time stay at the counter and do nothing... maybe learning things from those full timers... i dun noe... but i can see tat she kept staying at the counter...

i was left to guard the upper area again... jun hong occassionally ask mi to take my place... wat's the point...? if u wanna stand on top juz go ahead... there's no quota tat onli one person can stay on top at a time... if u wanna stand on top juz do it lor... i'm not blaming anyone lor... juz tat we have to cover for each other and everyone muz have initiative lor... if no one's at the top... oe shld rush and guard it lor... i can honestly say to when no ones at the top i will always rush and look after the top if i done my things tat the counter lor... hope everyone can be more responsible and have teamwork...

i have been left alone at sometimes almost everyday to look after the top area, the full timers most of the time stay at the counter... chit chatting... doing their jobs and stuffs... but i rush here rush there to look after the top area... where's the others..? they either went for dinner break or take things... today a grp of problematic ppl... wan chocolate then i mi to find the waiter at the restaruant... haiz... dunno them la...

i can honestly tell everyone out there, reading this blog tat i'm a very serious person when doing my work lor... its fine with mi tat u wanna have fun at work but i'm not always in the same boat with u all who wanna have fun lor... i juz wanna do my job well... tat's y i dun always put a smile on my face... onli when serving ppl then tat smile will be on... dun try to be funny with mi lor... sometimes those actions u do, maybe a joke to urself or u trying to help mi, but it may also be disrespecting to mi... i appreciate it... but ask be4 u do anything... thankz...

i'm still urging ppl who haven left any msg at the tag board to do so... lolz... yes.. i'm forcing u ppl to leave msg so i noe who's been reading my blog all the while... thankz u ppl... dunno wanna go soccer tml or not... haiz... quite tired of doing things on my own all the time...

7th day of work... leg feeling better...

today i put my insole in my working shoe... wah la... my leg dun feel much pain today... maybe it was the effect of the ice pack... maybe its the insole... but somehow i dun have those extreme pains again... its better but not fully cured...

today was a damn busy day... if i count roughly... there maybe 50 odd and above ppl in the bar... mostly partying at the bar counter...it was freaking crowded and i was sort of stunted lor... dunno wat to do... the crowd began to flood in after i start work at 3pm...

i was in total blur-ness... dunno wat to do when the crowd is on... then there was this mess-up of bills... how am i supposed to remember everyone's face in sure a busy crowd...? u shld ask them to stay in their seats...! a fight nearly broke up as the crowd disperse/begin to clear... one very drunk guy sort of touch another man's wife... then i think tat's how the verbal war began... it was threatening to start a fight but noel and lee stepped in...

tat drunked guy also took of his shoe and wanted to throw at one of my working frens... but Lee told him to put down... tat's wat i heard... then left a grp of aussies...? they were singing... playing with the cockdale, ser-veis(napkins) throwing them everywhere... and the nuts too... drunked and playful... we took away those things tat they were throwing... and had to clean up the mess... they are a disgrace to their country... after tat grp was gone... the bar becomes quite peaceful... few customers... then the others were like plaing and joking at the counter area... left mi looking at the upper area alone most of the time...

tat's wat i dislike lor... its a work/duty shared by everyone lor... i dun mind them playing.. but have to look after and help each other ma... left mi there alone... haiz... dun wanna talk about it anymore... they dun really noe when its time to be serious or play..

if anyone's reading this entry... pls left a msg at the tag board... or else its no point for mi to continue blogging when no one's seeing it... haiz...

6th day of work... my leg is breaking up...

as interpretted from the title... my leg is breaking up... as the pain like the leg is breaking... i think my veins and nerves in my legs are really hurted/damaged... dunno how long it will recover but if i continue to work like this... i dun think it will ever heal again... enuff of talking about the pain...

haiz... today was ok lor... but everytime when the big shots are in the bar... everyone will have to be veri alert and act 'hardworking'... alert as in when there are empty glasses we have to clear them immediately... hard working means have to walk around... change ash trays and stuffs... cannot stand around do nothing lor...

today got a lift by jun hong's dad... in the end was still late... yik ling worked i the morning... but there's onli 2 of them working lor... so need help from outside... quite slack in the afternoon... served 2 jap couple... they asked for ice tea and remon tea... remon tea..? we gave them hot lemon tea... dunno correct or not... dun care...

when Lee came.. he gave orders... i take care of the lower area... the others take care of the top... the lower area was bigger lor... then when ever the upper area is empty... i have to cover for them... damn tiring lor... but i wasn't really tired... but my legs are hurting alot... then somemore i have to walk non stop most of the time... really not much time to rest... or shld i say really no time for mi to rest at all.. except for dinner break...

somemore samuel i think i sacked... shawn working until tml... so next week onwards there will be 2 less staffs... i may join the quitting list soon... dun think my leg can ta han tat long... my next of day are friday and saturday... so have to work for 5 straight days... die ah...!!!

Off day....

today off day... cause need to go sch attend stupid 'video editing' course... 9 to 5... so bored lor... msn online but not many ppl online... go there learn things tat can be learnt roughly from internet... cheated $80 and my time... but at least learn something... then stupid ppl in the CR6 was damn playful lor... the instructor tell them to stop then tat bastard kept playing the music/video... dun wanna talk about these arrogant young punks... lolz..

during tat time in sch tried to get ppl to watch movie later in the night... but in the end onli ming wei ming went... watched Blade Trinity... lp 2 hrs be4 said she veri tired... wm said as expected... lolz... went there... at bus stop wm also alighted... then went arcade find mw... then buy tix... i bought pop-corns and drinks... they dun wanna buy... so i spent $7 on tat... plus $8.5 on tix.. somemore afternoon lunch eat $8.4, to try the new chicken wrap with student meal...

the movie lasted ard 1h 40-50mins... i'll give 3 out of 5 popcorns for the use of vulgurities in the movie... lolz... basically the movie was ok onli... a bit of funny scene here and there... lots of vampire killed... lots of ppl died... alot of actions... so-so movie... next week off day think i'm gonna watch National Treasure... so make sure u ppl this time dun give mi any reasons not wanting to watch with mi...

tml working at 3pm... dunno wanna do econs in the morning or not... so sian... somemore tml merseyside derby... still have to work.. cannot watch... haiz...

5th day of work...

Was late today... when i say late... it means really late... half an hour late... was rushing to the bar and saw May near the office... she wanted to call to ask y we still not there... jh helped by saying he lost his way... the overtime yesterday played a part in the late coming today... forget to mention tat our overtime is due to a party... and some of those present at the party are Pug Jelly, Urban xchange, shak hikel and his wife, annabel francis,... still got a talent scout and others... they celebrating someones birthday... i was slacking most of the time... leg too painful to move around...

coming back to today... being in morning shift.. there are alot of things to do at 1st... then can slack.... bring up the newspapers... wipe the tables... put on the ash trays... send nuts jar for cleaning... send cookies tin to be refill... replenish wine and juice glasses and stocks... busy at 1st... after tat cause in the morning not so much ppl... so can slack around....

today got one more gal at the counter late in the afternoon... jh say she veri attitude... always give tat 'face'... dun care... then pw and yl came 10min late... cause lost their way... they go dinner break so took veri long lor... more than the 30min given... then i was like the onli one looking after the upper portion as jh dunno went where liao... then the others all stay at counter area... talking and chatting... thankz lor... everytime like tat... so tiring...

finally came back home early... can rest my stressed out legs... tml off day also... but need to go sch... dunno wanna do the econs thing of not...

4th day of work.... OT...

damn tired... and its really damn tired... worked until this morning 2am... but hard to do morning shift later... which i'll be leaving home 30mins later...

finished my card writing yesterday... planned to mail them but dun have enuff stamps... rushed off to buy hair gel and do a quick shopping at NTUC, bought mentos and 2 cup noodle... then wanted to buy KFC with coupon but too crowded... so went to LJS instead... after tat rushed back home to eat up and bathe...

at worked... was anticipating the arrival of the 3 new staffs... yikling came in 1st... the 2 guys dunno doing wat? change so long... then i noe tat jun hong spoilt 2 previous shirt attempting to wear them.. they were brought/around... given a clearer look/explaination of the place than i do... but its ok... we are there to help each others...

they were all fine working... but late at night... while doing overtime... pw overturned a martini onto the table while trying to serve.... junhong broke wine glass...? with a customer sitting very close by... who blame them... its their 1st day and they maybe tired already... i was also tired... so most of the time during OT i juz stand at the stairs watching things happen...

and funny incidence happen to them on their 1st day.... jh was molested by 'gay'... touching his hands... and his butt was being brushed by another person... in the end he got a personal tip of 10 bucks... pw was also so of... by the gay guy.... but the day was also filled with run aways... its either the ran away with their drinks... or cheat on payments... we need to be more alert next time....


enuff said... need to prepare to go off liao...

3rd Day of work...

I'm dead tired..
slept for 10-odd hours this morning... but still feeling tired... do my stuffs then rushed to mrt platform to meet pw and others... didn't expect hq and wj to be there as well... then went to somerset mrt met jh and anlin at heeran... then walked to far east to tidy up.. i went off 1st... then their things/ interview i not sure liao...

was damn tired... walked around... around 2 hours it was liked i worked for the whole 8 hours liao... veri tired... and it was shown on my face most of the time.... mr noel and others quite worried... my feet feeling realli painful... dun think i will recover for tml's job... somemore i heard for noel tat 3 will be joining mi tml... so hope all of them can join mi at the bar...

too tired for anymore blogging...

2nd day at work...

planned my time quite well i shld say... did my stuffs after waking up... check mails and stuffs on com... then watch a bit tv... then continue my card writing(6 more to go)... then bathe... eat lunch... buy newspaper... then rushed off to bus stop... bus came at 2.05pm... reach orchard at about 2.45pm... then reached working place at 2.50... but unexpectedly... something held up at teh security area... then i was like rushing to get my uniform... changed go to manager's office to put my bags... asked for a nametag...

but noel didn't have... asked mi to find may... asked to reception ppl to help paged for may... then she went back office again... but still cannot find... asked mi to go to the security area to find josephine..? can't remember her name... search for a while cannot find something close to my name Jeff Tan... make one will take at least a week... so had to choose from Kelvin and Dennis... picked kelvin instead... then rushed back to martini bar...

sian lor... i can say tat the bar was around 60-80% full most of the time... while there are onli 2 ppl looking after the bar most of the time... cause samuel took leave... as i dunno how to mixed the drinks and stuffs... i was walking around like mad... onli rest at 6.40pm... had my dinner and came back to work where its getting more crowded... i dunno y... it seems tat most of the time we are having a shortage of man power.... 'gigi' was tat the bar with Lee... zee and i was serving around... but its 90% filled lor... quite busy...

was onli let off from work at 11.30pm... when i was supposed to worked till 11pm... thankz lor... really tired... legs in pain... eyes weary... neck pain... throat thirsty.. mouth dry... need to drink more water sia... after tat wanted to buy drink from 7-11... but the queue too long... gave up buying... watied for the bus to come.. hopped on... reached home at 12.07am...

made some mashed potatos to eat... and now blogging... haiz... so godd sia the others... yes... tat include u reading until here... no need to work izzit..? finished work early izzit...? haiz...

soccer... '4/6' gathering..?

Lat night slept at 2am.. today wake up at 8am... cause 8.30 got soccer... went down... reach liao onli HQ waiting... then pak came... ate his snack/cake.. thankz pak... then go to the soccer court... got a few ppl playing... then when kian teck, dave, wm, wen jie, rui zou came... the ppl playing gave way... then we start playing... then yw and his other 3 frens came... then got another team of 6 challengers...

quite hot sia the sun... cannot play properly... then all my shots haywire... powerful but no direction... onli managed to score a goal, a curling low shot, after jun hong assist... also made a rare dribble assist yw to score... other than tat lost most of the matches... too hot to play... somemore this is the last game hq's gonna play... take care at tekong..? think got sun burn liao... my arms looks more red than tanned...

after tat went home... rest a while be4 bathing... then use the com for a while be4 delivering something to my fren's mailbox as he going army in 3 days also... then after tat went for the '4/6' gathering/welcome ms teo back... reached there onli goh hui min there... at 1st i also cannot tell tat she wat ghm... pass some msg to her then went to walk at lot 1... changed alot... though i've been here a couple of weeks back.... went to watson for hair gel... quite ex... then didn't buy cause later dunno will spent how much money...

then waited... cogi came... called kiat and he's working... the called wee and yy... then they came... tat's all lor... while waiting for ms teo to come... he go inside world of jj to look around... then saw sheng cai and grace outside world of jj... with a few frens... then after tat went to BP plaze Swenson... took quite sometime to place our orders... then i ordered chicken baked rice and chocolate hot fudge... then the food came... and i dropped my spoon when i'm almost finished eating... so have to use fork instead... we talked alot... ms teo asked us wat we wanted to be... then she talk about her life at australia.... wat's happening at cckss... the teachers there...

then durga and amirah came.... ordered their ice cream while we are finishing ours.... then talk some more... then ms teo say she can imagine yy and wee wearing lab clothes... then mi working at shenton area... then durga say she expect mi to be more like a boxer... wat the...? then she kept saying lor... haiz... amirah say she wanna becomes a maths teacher... but after ms teo say tat besides marking and teaching... there are a lot of admin stuffs and stupid meetings... she may have second thoughts... ms teo say tat if being a teacher means onli teaching and marking... then she doesn't mind lor... but there are always other boring and stupid stuffs teachers need to do... attend stupid meetings tat cannot come to a conclusion after several hours... then there's this year end bonuses for teachers... everyone will be fighting for it lor... based on their performance and stuffs... if during parent-teacher-meeting the parents dun come... its means the teacher is nt handling well lor... will reflect on their report to MOE, whose judging their bonuses of 0 to 2 mths...

then after talking... went to take Neo Prints... lolz... so long nvr take liao... wee and yy nvr even take be4... then we 3 boys like take the back seats... the 5 ladies squeeze at the front... then amirah's head was like floating when looking at the final product of the neoprint... we took twice... the 2nd one the ladies at the back and we boys at the front... then got one is when everyone look up... so cute... lolz... after tat we parted... but was beginning to plan for a trip to JB to have a day with tuan sim, whose coming back on 12th i think...

sian... tml need to start work again... feel like quitting lor... cause my leg realli cannot tahan that long of standing hours... i think i will try a until next week... see if the situation becomes better... then make a decision... at least 2 more days of working alone... haiz...

Its freaking tired....!!!

Was actually late today.. lolz... late on 1st day at work... can it get anymore worse..? nope... meet aldrea(dunno how to spell her name) and may at mr noel's office... then there's mike, another manager... aldrea bring mi to collect my uniform, dun have a cupboard of my own, so put my bag under mike's desk... then noel brough mi to Martini bar...

introduced to everyone... there's mr Lee, the head at the bar, samuel, shawn, imuran(gigi), zee, ina... there's also kuma, chan and kok hong... they are friendly ppl... but Lee can get veri irritated when its crowded... tat's wat they say... was veri nervous lor... kept being asked to relax... holding cup and glasses kept shaking... lolz... then was shown around... where to take wines, the 4 different snacks sections, wine glass area... rubbish throwing area... ice taking area... dish cleaning area(juz put there for others to clean)...



my job mostly stand at the stairs area... got ppl wave at mi the go to attend to them... if got new ppl coming in also attend to them... take orders and stuffs... once in a while walk area to clean and clear up... quite busy when the crowds comes... after 6 pm... but the bar is a smoke zone lor... sian½... think i mostly will have develop cancer if i continue working after holidays... today was fine... considering i need to loosen up more and smile more... but my hearing got a bit problem... sometimes need 2 or more times to get the correct order... need to noe more about the wines and stuffs...

pretty tiring considering u have to stand for 8 hours... its a straight shift... got 11am to 7pm, 3pm to 11pm, 6 pm to 2 am... there's a half hour break for each shift... while the late night shift will have a supper break also... i'm still learning things... but i managed to remember the top section of tables already... i dun think my leg can ta han lor.. somemore flat foot... my foot hurts lor... try 1st... monday then start again... then friday break... next week work for 6 days... after tat 5days work week...

still got 11 more christmas cards to go... somemore have touch on my holiday assignments yet... wah... come on la ppl... pls talk mi at the tag board lor...

Job interview...

Woke up in the morning... do the usual things... switch on com check stuffs... then proceed to writing my christmas card... i think i'm in a veri tight schedule as my work will start tml... now onli conpleted 3 out my 22 cards... after tat bathe and changed clothes for the interview... but was waiting for my mother to cook lunch... but the meat still not done... so decide to go far east eat...

reached there at 3.25pm... was supposed to meet jean at far east bus stop at 3.30pm... but she called to say she will be late... so i walked around be4 choosing to eat KFC... quite sick of fast food already... been eating them almost the whole... haiz... then waited for jean so as to go for interview... ard 4 she called mi... met.. then went to see mr noel(or izzit nowell...? lolz...) more or less noe tat i'm doing banquet waiter... cause at 1st he wanted 2 secretaries... but need them to do data entry and stuffs... so he asked whether i can do MS word and excel... i said ok... but excel need some familiarising... he didn't ask jean... but say she either working at the bar or restaurant... wah... should have said tat i can do excel and words lor... but i really forget much of excel liao... now i can't even find the excel program at my com to practise... sian...

tml starting work liao... but juz now when polishing my shoe then found out they actually given mi 2 of the same side with different sizes... 9 and 8... sian½... called them and went down to exchange... wasted my time polishing and time going down... haiz... but i can get the shoe to be shiny leh.. mi sux at polishing...

Haiz... has everyone been busy or am i tat unapproachable... no one seems to wanna talk or chat with mi... sob sob... wat's the point of having frens in the 1st place...? to make u angry...? to make fun of u..? to take advantage of u...? or to care and concern about u...? to understand u...? to make u feel tat u have someone to talk to and not feeling lonely...? haiz...

so scared tat i will not do well 1st day at work tml... i can smile la... but during normal conversation i'm like tat lor... hopefully i can do my job well and everyone's friendly to mi... hoping the others will job mi soon... haiz...

Finally... things are settled... 潘瑋柏 - 我讓你走了

我一直坐在咖啡廳的角落 沒有人發現我還在難過
其實早就已經忘了怎麼說 就算再怎麼捨不得 你還是走了
我還不想承認這事實 怎麼會變成這個樣子 沒有了
我真的什麼都沒有了 就像一個廢人 回家的路上我哭了
眼淚再一次崩潰了 無能為力這樣走著 再也不敢驕傲奢求了
我還能夠說些什麼 我還能夠做些什麼 我好希望你會聽見
因為愛你我讓你走了 我讓你走了Baby 我一直坐在咖啡廳的角落
沒有人發現我還在難過 其實早就已經忘了怎麼說 就算再怎麼捨不得
你還是走了 我還不想承認這事實 怎麼會變成這個樣子 沒有了
我真的什麼都沒有了 就像一個廢人 回家的路上我哭了
眼淚再一次崩潰了 無能為力這樣走著 再也不敢驕傲奢求了
我還能夠說些什麼 我還能夠做些什麼 我好希望你會聽見
因為愛你我讓你走了 回家的路上我哭了 眼淚再一次崩潰了
無能為力這樣走著 再也不敢驕傲奢求了 我還能夠說些什麼
我還能夠做些什麼 我好希望你會聽見 因為愛你我讓你走了 我讓你走了Baby

this morning... woke up... do the usual things... switch on computer... browse around... then took out my 'printing' materials and calligraphy stuffs... to some it maybe a little late to write christmas cards... but i also kind of busy lately... been going to town area for the whole of this week... tml also going... if start work on saturday then town will be like my second home liao...
juz took out the things and write the addresses on the envelopes... print stuffs on the cards... haven realli started writing... but muz be quick... cause a few going away... hope they can receive the card be4 the go places...

then need to rush to sch... took 98 to the mkt near sch to photocopy my medical letter for badminton... then waited for the guys, as they went for the image consultant thingy..., then i went to return my locker keys also... but cannot get back the refund deposit of $5 as my fren dunno got return the other key... damn... now also cannot find him and ask... dunno he have prove or not... sian... he shld have given mi the other key be4 he quit sch... after tat went to canteen sit... then pak came and find mi... then started playing soccer near general office... lolz... play passing... play monkey... after tat left sch... threw away the PW file... then kanna caught kicking the soccer ball by the principal when he driving back to sch...

Yw wanted to go bugis buy clothes... so he called mi and hq to go along... wm and pak dunno go where... jean took 157 to change bus home... then we decided against taking 502... dunno y... i juz follow... then waited for the next 198 to change to mrt... then reached JE library outside busstop and see wm and pak waiting for bus... then went to eat LJS... talked abit... how anger can temporary change a person's behaviour... then decided against going bugis... all go home...

after reaching home play for a while need to go raffles again to settle things... dun wish to talk much about it... wasted like 2hrs+ be4 the director talked to mi... he talked alot of things... but it nvr realli affect my determination to quit... dun think i'll go back again... no matter how successful they will be in the future... its their business... i have my own future and i dun wan tat to be involved in...

finally things are settled... sorted... solved... dun understand y some ppl can understand my feelings in minutes, while others may take hours and yet still cannot understand...

三句六字真言: 平 常 时 笑 笑 说 , 吵 架 时 慢 慢 言 , 生 气 时 轻 轻 讲 .
i think tat if u wan to maintain a relationship, u need to be patient... understanding... willing to listen to others even when u are in an angry mood... nothing cannot be solved, unless u are not willing to involve urself in solving it... relationship can be very stressful... be it friendship, or BGR... nothing is easy... if not u will not learn from mistakes and improve on it... when one is angry with u... try to give them some time to cool down... i've experienced half a yr of cooling down period by my frens... maybe even longer... time may heal wounds... but its better to put ur doubts, troubles, things bothering u on the table and discuss... with tat person or with a fren... 3rd person's point of view sometimes can help see things better... its bad for ur health to keep troubles in ur heart and worries in ur mind...

Orchard again...

planned to raid the hotels for jobs again... met pw at JE mrt... YL was there also... but i dunno her much... she and pw talk on the train... i occassionally opened my mouth... but didn't talk much.... reached there... anlin was there... then sat down at the fountain... then need to wait for jun hong as well... he said he at somerset mrt liao... but as we wait... it was as though he was still a few stations away lor... be4 coming in the HMV... saw a proposal of 'will you marry me' on the advertisment screen of HMV... and its the real thing lor... then infront of HMV a couple of guys hold digicam sounding a grp of 3 ladies... then one guy came out with flowers in his hand and propose i think... we didn't see the whole thing... juz walk pass them... so nice... maybe i'll try that when i got gf.. haha... it might cost a bomb i think...

after tat found out tat jun hong got off at orchard mrt instead of somerset... the 2 gals went off to do some shopping... so mi and pw sort of went to fetch JH... while in found of taka... i decide to see my fren, kiat, on his 1st day at work... he worked as cashier some where near ka ho's counter... after a while left the place and juz in time as pw fetched jh... went to maritus mandarin's lobby to wait for the 2 gals to meet us... but in the end either they were lost of something... didn't see them... then we went to the hotel's check pt 1... but couldn't find them... so decide to meet them at cine... then went to check pt one again but the security say HR will be out for luch liao.. ask us to comeback at 2pm... so we went to eat BK, again...,

they talk a lot... i as usual remain quiet... cause the topics they talking i also dunno.. jun hong add the blue 'shot' in his coke... tasted veri sour... then we left cine to check pt 1 again... got there... waited long for the lift... at level 5 went into the banquet department... but the lady didn't wan guys... cause they onli accept those who can work long term... until june, july... so mi surely not accept... pw and jun hong also rejected lor... her tone was also not veri nice la... after getting out... went to Hyatt... got to the HR... waited for a while...filled the particulars... yl was called infront and pw also stood up... lolz... then pai sei... cause tat person onli called yl's name... then another guy called nowell came and talked to us said he like this kind of intelligent ppls, jc students, then asked us to come back soon so he can intro us to a couple of other management ppl.... mid-way talking there was like 2 black-out... the 1st time he joked,' for one moment i couldn't see my hand...' ... tat was lame la... considering he's a dark guy... not chinese i think... told him i'll come back on friday while the others on monday... scared i maybe cheated when i come alone on friday... haiz... then bid fairwell to him.. got his hp no. ...

then went anyhow walk lor... went back hmv again... then to taka... then AL went off... then walk around taka... to kinokuniya.... pw stood there to see gun dam seed.... jh hong found an interesting book, veri big and heavy..., with veri nice sceneries... if used as wallpaper it will be terribly nice lor... walk walk then got to 'Stadium' royal sporting hse ah..? i went off to look at the liverpool merchendise... haiz... no money buy... then look around the store.. then go to macdonald to talk and rest... after tat ard 6 left mac as they other 3 went to have their dinner while i take bus 105 home alone... crowded... but i managed to find a seat and sit down... tiring...

all i can say today is, no offences, pw has no sense of direction... lolz... maybe not no.. juz poor.... at least today was fruitful as in we are certain there will be jobs for us... tml will be going town area again to settle stuffs... need to return my locker keys as well haiz...

Another soccer day...

Last night slept at 2am... then today wake at 9am... left home a while later to head for soccer session with my sec sch frens... peter, michael, kiat, si yuan, jeremy, jun hao, wee, evan and jing seng...reached a little late... but the court was occupied anyway... then near 11am we sent a team in... played... jun hao was like god lor.. single 'leggedly' help our team to kick out the opponent... his solo efforts were superb... once again i scored goals in someof the matches... though the other guys onli remember jun hao's heroics... i did alot of closing down when the other team have the possession... steal the ball, shoot and score.. made a couple of snap shots and score too... quite a nice day... think my stamina is regaining... but the pain still occur at my leg after playing for a while... jin seng score a couple of goals as well... so did peter... our last game... peter sub mi and scored within 10sec of his appearence...
think its our last session of soccer with him as he's going ns on the 8th... sad... while trying to deliver a cross... wee tried to clear it, jumped and the ball hit him on the face... his glasses make a small cut on his face... specs also bended... so sorry... but he's ok... then after soccer they decided to go clementi play pool...

went there early as i thought i better leave home be4 the rain comes... but the rain was like a veri light drizzle... saw ms lim, our sec sch chem teacher... now dunno mrs ???, didn't go greet her... i shy ma... then ka ho and jeremy came... then jun hao... then peter and kiat... then we go to the place, snookerium?, 1st... evan and e teck go there themselves....played for 1hr+ then kiat and i got buy leather shoe with ka ho... kiat wanted extreme comfort cause his job's like standing for 8hrs lor... then i buy the same as him... then he was looking for long sleeves shirt but cannot find a suitable one... so he gave up lor... later after pool session then go lot 1 seiyu buy... after playing pool we go eat lunch at the coffee shop... then headed for 188 bus stop at the highway road there... long walk... leg pain... haiz... sian...

Been walking... playing soccer for the past 3 days... wah... my legs are veri tired...! need to get some decent rest, start doing my holiday hw and write my christmas cards liao... now veri broke liao... if go out i'm welcome to any treating from u ppl... thankz... waiting for tml to come... think my business thingy is not going to be settled tml... they heck care to tell mi... why shld i ask them... their time is money... mine is not la...

Tiring day... 周傑倫 - 藉口

曲：周傑倫 詞：周傑倫 編：周傑倫
翻著我們的照片 想念若隱若現 去年的冬天 我們笑得很甜
看著你哭泣的臉 對著我說再見 來不及聽見 你已走得很遠
也許你已經放棄我 也許已經很難回頭 我知道自己錯過
請再給我一個理由 說你不愛我 就算是我不懂 能不能原諒我
請不要把分手當作你的請求 我知道堅持要走 是你受傷的藉口
請你回頭 我會陪你一直走到最後 就算沒有結果 我也能夠隨
我知道你的痛 是我給的承諾 你說給過我縱容 沉默是因為包容
如果要走 請你記得我 如果難過 請你忘了我

Walking and standing non-stop from 11am-8pm... wah... walking around... standing to decide where to go next... no... its not shopping... is looking for jobs lor... the day started where i was meeting with pw at JE MRT... thought we were waiting for 2 gals... but end up both going town on their own... then hop onto the next train and reach The Heera/HMV at 11.05.... jean was already there... listening to music at HMV... then i also went to try the cd 'JZ and linkin park collision course'... quite nice... feel like buying... but haiz... then waited for the others to come... AL came when pw finished withdrawing money... then waited for cindy... see there for a while to decide what jobs we'll be looking for... but went to taka 1st...

went to see ka ho's work place then saw shui jing... didn't noe he working there also... then asked a few things about their jobs lor... cause we are trying to apply as well... then in the end we went up to the HR office but the ppl out for lunch... sian... then muz come back later... then we went to eat KFC... but brough our food into the Mac territory... but no one chase us or anything... while eating they when discussing their job experiences... so sad... i haven got any jobs yet in my life... the selling of x'mas card was nothing lor... then after eat walk around taka again be4 heading for the hotel's to try our luck... 1st was the Hyatt... but found out tat their HR was closed until 6pm.. weird time... then waslk to the other side of the road walk around.. stop at outdoor mac to do some calling to reply the ads from the newspapers... then went to orchard mrt to go to raffles place... saw and chat for a while with kevin, hq, kj... whose waiting for the late wj...

reached raffles place... went up to the recuit express agency... quite sux... considering tat most of the jobs they have now are for females... somemore got ppl say tat they dun even reply u for months lor... actually i maybe hindering the others job prospect... cause i can onli work during dec... but our spokes-woman, cindy, also quite demanding... monthly pay muz be at least $1,200... or $6/hr... then after tat walk along clark quey for a while be4 heading back... they went mac buy drinks.. then walk back to mrt... back to orchard... found out kiat got the job liao... jean was also rushing for time as PL was waiting for her to go her hse to dye hair... then we go to Paragon basement... thought of asking for job at THE MARKET... but dunno who to ask... then head back to the take HR there but found out tat all jobs are taken... then put our name on the waiting list... which we were 10+ ppl behind...

then pw decided to chiong for more hotels but the gals got other things on... cindy got audition... jean need to meet PL... AL dun wan to be the onli gal so went back with jean... then mi and pw go look for the secert HILTON hotel... be4 tat went to Maritus Mandrian hotel... got their no. as the hr closed liao.. then walked back to shaw tower tat area... saw the map of whole of orchard rd... saw where hilton's location was... but pw stomachache.. then went to wheelock place for him to settle his business... while waiting for him... went into the nike shop... saw a socks tat has more support at the heel area, also have socks with support for the toe area as well... then the toy shop opp. got hello kitty lamp i think... after he came out went to hilton... seek help for the security and he gave us the banquet branch's no. all the ppl he asked are nice ppl... thankz them...

then walked over to center point to meet the other 4 guys... then went home... they tricked us alighted at city hall then own self go raffles place then change train... nvm lor... they are like tat lor... playful as always... then went home... waited for kj to board bus then i walked home... tat's today's adventure...

Soccer day... 熊天平 - 火柴天堂

走在寒冷的夜空 賣著火柴溫飽我的夢一步步冰凍一步步寂寞
人情寒冷我的手 一包火柴燃燒我的心 寒冷夜裡擋不住前行風刺
我的臉雪割我的口 拖著腳步還能走多久有誰將一根根希望點全部點燃
有誰來買我的孤單有誰來實現我想家的呼喚 每次 點燃火柴微微光芒
看到希望 看到夢想 看見天上的媽媽說話 她說你要勇敢你要堅強
不要害怕 不要慌張□你從此不必再流浪 媽媽牽著你的手回家睡
在溫暖花開的天堂

Had a veri good and peaceful sleep this morning... slept at 1am++... but quickly got into dream land... though dun remember any dream... this is my most peaceful slp these few days... cause i speaked my mind yesterday... its like finally putting down a stone in my heart...

woke at 9.30am... do some wash up... check e-mails and websites... switch off com then head down to the street soccer court at the park near my house...went reach there onli saw ee teck... then when walking to the court saw the other 4 guys coming from the coffee shop...
ming wei ming, mw's fren... and hq... did some shooting practices as 6 ppls realli cannot start a game lor... somemore the heat from the sun is hitting down on us... at least for mi... then zj, jh ,wj, pw & ah xiao4 came afterwards... pw came last... in the 1st game... there was a 3 goals rushed... i lobbed the GK to open my account... then ah xiao4(GK) score one back... then i hit back with another shot that forces the GK to deflect into goal...

then i was like totally wore out lor... stamina as weak/poor as be4... after makin run cannot run anymore... lolz... then need a long period to recover... MW was on fire lor... shooting with power and precision... this shows tat liverpool's mellor will score hattrick... lolz... he predict pongolle and mellor each score hattrick... lolz.. 6-0... then became gk for a while while i was recovering... did quite ok... saving shots until i let in a silly goal... lolz.. then got back into the game... linking well with wj to score another goal... after playing until the clouds came and rain starts to fall.. we stopped... i was a great time for mi to destress after all the things tat's happening to mi... thankz for organising soccer... i have another soccer session on tuesday... lolz..

tml i think i'm going with zh and pw to look for jobs... then wednessay going back to the place to settle things once and for all... later hope the guys will be watching soccer... haiz...

Mentally disturbed... Eminem - The Way I Am

Album: Marshall Mathers LP (2000)Song: The Way I am
Chorus: Eminem
And I am, whatever you say I am If I wasn't, then why would I
say I am? In the paper, the news everyday I am Radio won't even play
my jam Cause I am, whatever you say I am If I wasn't, then why would I
say I am?In the paper, the news everyday I am I don't know it's just the
way I am... "Oh, it's his lyrical content -- the song 'Guilty
Conscience' has gotten such rotten responses"...
I'm so sick and tired of bein admired that I wish that I would just
die or get fired and dropped from my label and stop with the
fables I'm not gonna be able to top on "My Name is.."And
pigeon-holed into some pop-py sensation to cop me rotation at rock'n'roll
stations And I just do not got the patience (got the patience)...

Juz now i made a veri important decision... i decided to quit wat i was planning to do... even though the price is already paid... i still decided to call the quits.... i cannot do things against my conscious, my hearts and most importantly cheat/lie to myself... i really cannot continue doing this, even its veri profitable long term... i cannot do it... i dun wanna regret wat i'm doing when it is too late... many ppl will be attracted by the monetary factor and the long term, part time factor... but after veri much consideration... after wat seem like i'm going to do this for sure... i bring up my courage and say no to it.... though the consequences maybe huge... i will risk it... i dun like to do things against my conscious... wat thing it is cannot be said as its a business secret... i quit cause it's against my nature, my way of doing things...

My mother always tell mi to choose urself... as long as u are happy and comfortable and best to myself... she will not object to it... at 1st i wanna earn money from this to give lift a little of their burden... but not... i have added burden to myself... but who dun make mistakes... i'll learn from this and hope this will eventually end next week when i meet up with another ppl from the higher managment...

this event has cause mi to have insomnia for 2 days after i got home each day from that place... i caused mi to think alot yet being forced in a short time to make a decision... i juz hope tat after making this decision today i will feel better... too bad i dun have many(any?) close frens whom i can share with... haiz...

really looking forward to tml's soccer... then i can really let loose and play my hearts out... i need jobs now... got lobang muz tell mi... thankz... really... muz tell mi...

孫燕姿 - 奔

曲：李偲菘 詞：天天 編：Kenn C
灰色的氣壓 扭曲的臉 好悶 生活顏色比天黑 不想負責的就無解 愛情像潛水
氧氣剩一些 無法呼吸的瞬間 開始吧 狂奔的起跑線 視覺像電影剪輯著從前
心跳正在撲通天上飛 拚命追 I Will Go This Way 自由對於我 是種發洩 就算
愛情變成了洪水 喘了也累了攤在那邊 我就想依賴揮霍著眼淚
對錯歸零出發在瞭解 開啟吧 狂奔的起跑線 視覺像電影剪接著從前
心跳正在撲通天上飛 I Will Say Yes I Choose This Way 十二點 凌晨交界
黎明前 天還是黑的 自由了 我的靈魂 我狂奔著 拚命追 不會停歇
血液裡留著頹廢 到哪裡都向著明天 天亮了另個起點告別從前

Juz now went swimming with the guys, hq, pak, wj, zh, jh, max & pw... when i reach there wj and jun hong already sitting in KFC waiting... i was late for 15min, from the meeting time of 4.30pm... then came pak.. zh... kevin... hq came... we went in be4 max and pw came... stuffed our things inside the locker... then kevin tat side was lacking 1 more 20cent coin... then mi, jh, zh and wj went straight into the wave pool... it was freaking cold lor... i was like shaking lor... lolz... somemore the wave already started with the water droplets from the sky... COLD...! after a while managed to adapt with the cold environment... then they start playing lor... hang on the wall while the wave was on.. then was called off by the life guard... the life guard was veri busy lor... blowing his whistle every now and then... think after chasing ppl of they can slack lor... lolz...
then we started playing diving... everyone stand in a row.. then one guys will have to dive under our legs... but max kept disturbing the divers.... they also play wrestling moves... hand stand oin the water... 'leg stand'... jump over head.. quite stupid.... then got a grp of gals playing with a small ball... then zh tio say he tio stunt when the ball landed infront of him... then scared got one gal rushed towards him.. then the others like veri scared tat the ball will come our way lor... after tat tried the yellow slide... went for 3rounds of lazy 'yellowish' pool... tried to do the longest 'human chain' but realli cannot last veri long as it takes a veri strong person to hold on with 7 other ppl pulling him with the current... after tat go to the jacuzzi...stayed and talked for a while be4 heading for the changing room to get tidy up... went to coffee shop eat dinner... then went home...

GREAT gathering / 5566 - 因為愛

曲：Aaron Phillips/Eric Johnson 詞：柯呈雄 編：呂紹淳
協志: 看著天空漸漸的亮起來 協志/仁甫: 幸福的花兒有沒有開
5566: 哦美夢甜的讓人不想醒來 小緯: 太陽不管我是否存在
小緯/懷恩: 每天依然快樂的自轉 R&B: 想你若不在 我怎麼會精采 Oh
告訴我什麼是愛 怎麼做才不會遺憾 告訴我什麼是愛和被愛
把你的心門都打開 看看陽光多麼溫暖 所有的冷漠都不再因為愛
K-ONEJR: 你說愛就像個調色盤 K-ONEJR/Darren: 把喜怒哀樂通通都擠一塊
太極全: 有紅的藍的綠的橘色和黑白 太極全: 我們曾有過爭執和不愉快
JR/心凌/仔仔: 如今通通都拋開 JR/7F: 在雨後剩下天邊迷人的燦爛
Oh Darren/Gino/Kido: 我不要生命中沒有你
協志/孟哲/心凌: 只希望這承諾你都會相信
仔仔/JR: 讓我牽你的手一起走過這冬季 仁甫/立揚/仔仔: 寫愛的奇跡
NA NA NA... Typhoon: There's a voice's telling meOnly true love you can see
那是天使在singing說 make it real 183Club: 這個世界的苦已太多
偏偏彼此只懂得折磨 退一步就海闊天空love love love I wanna know what
it's like I wanna feel what it's like I wanna know what it's like to be loved
I wanna know what it's like I wanna feel what it's like I wanna know what it's
like to be loved

hmm... how shld i say about the gathering yesterday...? it was fun fun times with them and quite successful i shld say.... onli a couple couldn't make it... but the others who turned up made this a veri nice trip down town... meet wj, wm and pak on bus 105 to go down town... reached far east plaza's bus stop and saw the 1st grp of guys holding and drinking the the drink 'Bu Shuang'... kj had to buy the pink one so as the gather all the different flavour...
after finally gathering everyone.. we went to Han's at lvl 3 of far east... ordered set dinners then we got birthday cake for wj and anlin.. then we tried to 'add ingredient' to leong's cake and ask LP to give him.. he nvr suspect her... lolz... after eating we decided to got ktv... though there were so small problems here and there, we still manage to get everyone there in the end...
We sang out hearts out, ok... tat's most prob for mi onli la... i dunno about the others..., songs after songs from 9 to 1am... sang until our throat becomes sore and dry... ordered drinks and beer... but the beers mostly finished by wj and zh... after we went to roam the orchard streets... some guys go buy beer again and some really getting haywire... drunk... then we hop on the taxi and go to cck interchange's coffee shop eat supper... after eating sent lp home... was like a soccer team of guys bodyguarding her home lor... look veri weird and strange especially the time was 3++ am in the morning... after tat went Esso for drinks again and toilet break... then hop on the cab again to go home... reached home abt 4am...

switched on the com read some mails, switced on the tv... saw the 1st goal of the newcastle's match... then zh boasting tat he 1st to online... lolz... he win lor... we different route lor... then switched off the com and tv.. went to slp... got woken up at around 8-9 by mother's call to close the window as rain seems looming... then went back to slp again be4 ms tie called mi about the Econ's voucher thing... then truth was we are supposed to sign on it be4 she give us lor... tat sk nvr clarifed... haiz...

It was really a fun time... most of them loosen up after a veri tiring, brain cells killing, nerve racking... exam period... these grp of ppl are really fun to hang out with... so sad tat i'm not offically their class mates... but we r stilll frens... be4 some of them go into army... i think they planing another round.. lolz.. thankz u ppl of 03s27/25 for making it such a fun time for mi and everyone...

漸漸 - 趙薇/No Name

曲：Yida(黃義達) 詞：陳克華 編：陳彥軍
你轉身走向來時的街 陽光刺出眼中的淚 原來離別正上演 挽回終究是無解
漸漸不見你微笑的臉 會不會是你在表演 眼淚干了只是鹽 哭過沒有感覺 Hu
你漸漸不見 你樣堅決(愛漸漸不見) Hu 愛消失眼前眼前是白天但夜般黑
胸口正下一場大雪 寒冷將靈魂凍結 我卻還不肯熄滅 應該是任你漸漸走遠
但兩個我正在對決 感情在心中沉澱 已過保存期限 Hu 愛漸漸不見
將我心凍結(你漸漸不見) 感覺 WuHu 我已被撕裂 愛漸漸不見(愛漸漸不見)
愛漸漸不見(愛漸漸不見) 看不見 這一切(Hu)一轉眼 太遙遠(地轉天旋)
看不見 這一切(你漸行漸遠) 一轉眼 聲已經熄滅 看不見 這一切(感覺 WuHu )
一轉眼 太遙遠(漸漸不見) 看不見 這一切(愛已經熄滅) 看不見 這一切(Hu )
一轉眼 太遙遠(地轉天旋) 看不見 這一切(你漸行漸遠) 一轉眼 都已經熄滅
看不見 這一切(感覺 WuHu ) 一轉眼 太遙遠(漸漸不見)看不見 這一切
愛已經熄滅

Is this the liverpool i support...? if so... its been disappointing mi too much too often... but one thing is for sure... i will continue to support this famous team with the red jersey with the liverbird logo on... come on... begin to show others why liverpool is tat well known... u are more than capable of overcoming such crisis... You'll Never Walk Alone...

Quite a meaningful day...

went to badminton training today... reach JE stadium then found out i got to the wrong place... today's training is at gombak... then head there lor... then started training... again lacking the stamina to train properly... but in the end still played in a double and won 2 sets... mostly becoz of my partner la...

then when going home... see the hp saw daniel lee called mi... called him back he said got a job sure will earn money... called mi down... then i meet him 8 at raffles place mrt... reached early but he came down after i told him i was early... then he told mi the 'job' was the one he mention to mi the last time, which he didn't tell mi much detail la... but i say... wat's the harm going there and hear wat's on offer... then decide later... then i found out alot lor...

wat u dream of having, eg. cars, condo, holidays, gd life...etc, cannot be achieve if u dun work for it, if u dun have the desire to work for it. capital is not a problem... mr Bill gates wasn't rich at 1st... he sold his ideas to australia govt for 160 million, now his net worth is 46billion... then i was introduce the stuffs... then i decided wanted to join lor... not join for my future, but to also give my parents an assurance for their old age... think about it...

LFC match later... can't sleep much... 3.35am start... haiz...

My sporting career/S.H.E - 痛快

曲：左安安 詞：施人城 編：
痛快去(愛)痛快去痛 痛快去悲傷 痛快去感動 生命給了什麼 我就享受什麼
每顆人間煙火 全都不要錯過 每一天 都是一個節慶 每件事
都發生來豐富我的記憶 很好奇 還有誰等著闖進我日記 歡迎光臨 親愛的
請享用我的感情 痛快去(愛)痛快去痛 痛快去悲傷 痛快去感動 生命給了什麼
我就享受什麼 每顆人間煙火 全都不要錯過 痛快去感動 笑與哭都值得用力氣
吻和淚 都是該表框紀念的痕跡 很樂意 每段路都有陌生人同行
愛或傷害都歡呼 都是活過的證據 痛快去(愛)痛快去痛 痛快去悲傷
痛快去感動 生命給了什麼 我就享受什麼 每顆人間煙火 全都不要錯過
艷陽暴雨 不要客氣 請一直澎拜我 熱切的血液 我活著的目的 就是活得鮮明
痛快迎接痛快等候 痛快去失控 痛快去觸碰 生命安排什麼 我就感謝什麼
每顆人間煙火 全都美麗了我 痛快去(愛)痛快去痛 痛快去悲傷 痛快去感動
生命給了什麼 我就享受什麼 每顆人間煙火 全都不要錯過
痛快去(愛)痛快去痛 痛快去悲傷 痛快去感動 生命給了什麼 我就享受什麼
每顆人間煙火 全都不要錯過 痛快去感受

Jean: i like the idea of having picnic... i fine with anything... juz organise and tell mi the details... buy present exchange/buy food/go places... its fine with mi...
yesterday was a sad day... liverpool lost their 4th away game... this resulted in lost ground against man u, gunners, and chelski... 13points behind the leaders even though there's a game in hand... went to wei ming house to watch... disappointing performance by a team of their standard... the acting strikers of gracia and kewell kept roaming the midfield resulting in no one up-front... traore position was another downside... kept drifting out of place... alsonso passing was poor... even when gerrard came on... they still concede another goal, making sure the victory went to boro... hope RB can wake up his ideas and try something tat will benefit the whole team and start playing like a top4 EPL club...

SPORTS
CYCLING: I think i learnt cycling when i was around the age of 8-10 yrs old... managed to learn it within an hour... and its 2wheels... not 4... those were the days tat will not come back... mi and my bros cycling at the void deck... chasing each other....

BADMINTON: I was influenced to playing badminton when i was young... during the week-ends... my family will book a court at the CCK community centre and they will all go there and play badminton at night... my father, mother, aunts, bros... and mi... that was when my interest was developed... during pri3, badminton was the 1st ECA tat came to mind... i chose it... managed to get into the sch team... captained the team... won 4th place twice in the Queenstown district... though i shld had a 1st 2nd place battle with henry park... but tat was the past...
sec sch i continue to play badminton... the change in schedule of my another CCA, NPCC, forced mi to give up NPCC, my childhood dream of police... lolz..., and remain as a badminton player... i was a tough time not being able to represent cck in tournaments as the sch's stupid policy to disallow upper sec to participate... lower sec not enuff members, upper enuff ppl liao they disallow... disheartening... the quality of players was also lacking... as i'm not as gd as well... took part in outside competition also can't get pass/into 3rd round....
JC chose badminton again... not enuff talent to get into the senior squad... not being hinder by my injury(long term?) dun even know if i'm able to continue anymore...

SWIMMING: Learned swimming during pri 4... got the certificate of achievement for completing the Intermediate swimming course... then in sec 2, the whole batch of students went for swimming course at BB as well... managed to pass national survival swimming award: Bronze... but some how lost tat certificate when doing some printing and returning of books at bp plaza... got in time be4 i learnt swimming... went to sentosa resort, think its the shangri la hotel, then early in the morning i went down to swim with my father... i suddenly rush forward and jump into the pool... then i couldn't stand as i had jumped into an adult pool... then was like struggling... my father couldn't come in time to save mi... hence the jeff u noe is actually a ghost... kidding la... i was stuggling, then somehow i managed to get to the side of the swimming pool... still my hands and legs anyhow beat the water and moved toward the edge... i like to do diving in the pool... holding breathe and swim underwater... during pri sch i need my fren's help so i could pass a test to dive down and pick up an object underwater... i now i'm gd at it already... my 2 main/onli styles are the frog and free... but due to possible injury to the knee... i cannot kick water while doing the frog style... haiz... think my flatfoot is giving mi more problem than i expect...

SOCCER: tried to play soccer during pri sch because of the frens i'm with... was a newbie... always playing in defence or GK... really dunno how to play then... in sec sch then learn more on the skills and techniques... played with frens after sch... developing strong defensive attributes... my defence is much better than my attack... but i can attack though cause i always the provider and scorer when playing with my sec sch frens... hehe... in jc... meant even more soccer frens... when free will play soccer...

Basketball: started playing in pri sch also... with those soccer frens... cause got a few in the b-ball sch team... tat time also quite sux... when reaching sec sch... lower sec play b-ball like almost 3-4 times a week... fun time... continued to play occasionally i upper sec cause veri difficult to call ppl to play... got 1 time i at cck cc i shot 6 out of 8 3pointer shots... the 6 was consecutives... lolz... so nice the feeling... am still playing it now but cant't find nobody to play nowaday.... everyone seems so unwilling, not free...

Bowling: started playing when i was in pri 6... tat time scored a high of 69.... then in sec sch, occasionally will ask frens to play at BP plaza bowling ally... got one time was having a sort of inter-class, 2/5 against 2/7 or 2/8... though we lost... but i managed to outscored everyone... my highest score during sec sch was around 160... tat time managed to beat CK by 98 points... he was really off-form lor... cause his so called Lim's bowling style quite gd... its a straight ball throwing style... tat time still got wee playing with us... he's also a gd player on his days... in jc took part in the JJ bowling open 2003... teamed with Lay ping, yew wei and li ying... played at chevrons... tat time everyone played quite ok... but we didn't get into the trophy zone of top5... think we onli in 6th or 7th... then we made a comeby the following yr... we managed to scrape a 2nd overall team effort in JJ bowling open 2004. LY didn't wanna participate, so we called in the jc1 captain to join us... he played averaging 120+, i played ard 140 average... LP made a comeback at the final 2 rounds after a score of 98 at the 1st... yw being consistant scored better than mi...
we secured 2nd place by mere single digit difference... but lack the top team by around 21 points... if onli LP managed a better score... lolz... we not blaming u la... at least u help secure 2nd place... but yw and mi were teasing her as we onli lack 21 points... wm and his team didn't fared well as pak showed up at the soccer court rather than at the bowling ally... currently my high score is 184... using a 10 pound ball... throwing style is straight throw,powerful and 'lights spoiling', they accuse mi throw too hard spoilt the lights...lolz...

there's still alot of sports tat i play and i know how to play... think i'm quite a well-rounded sportsman...

Achievements:
pri 5 & 6: Two 4th place trophies from badminton Queenstown district tournament
sec1 : sports meet - 3rd in 4 x 100 relay, 3rd in 10 x 200 relay
sec3 : sports meet - 1st in javelin, 2nd in 4 x 200 relay, 3rd in triple jump
JC1 : sports meet - 3rd in discus. inter-hse soccer 2nd(didn't play at all)
JC1(retain) : Inter-house - 2nd in badminton, 2nd in team bowling

MY LIFE part3 (upper sec)/周傳雄 - 男人海洋

曲：周傳雄 詞：姚若龍 編：
當我抱著你的時候 窗外風起 黃葉飄落 以為是浪漫 原來只是
有心在飛走 不懂情人心裡想的 愛就瞎了 也迷路了 想摸索什麼
摸到了你 手心的沉默 最癡情的男人像海洋 愛在風暴裡逞強
苦還是風平浪靜的模樣 捲起了依戀那麼長 揮手目送你啟航
到你覺得我給不了的天堂 溫柔的男人像海洋 愛在關鍵時隱藏
而心酸彙集都敞開胸膛 做遠遠看護的月光 不做阻擋你的牆
我的愛是折下自己的翅膀 送給你飛翔

My Life
Was pondering which subject combi to go for after i got my sec 2 yr end result... got an average score of 74.1/100... 5th position in class... i can't remember who top the class...? izzit Su Bing or peter...? for guys the position was like 1st: Peter, then kiat, then Mi... the other to 5 was Vannese(xiao mei mei) and su bing... backed to which combi to take... i was pondering whether to take the pure science combi with my frens or go for arts... which was my love tat time... liked to draw and do things on arts... but in the end went for the double pure science class, which was the so called best class, 3/6.

other than the above mention ppl... chan kuan was also joined 3/6... our batch of 2/5 classmates was the least compared to those from 2/6, 2/7 & 2/8.... the experience of sec 3 was not memorable or interesting... cause i can't remember much of those days... i think i was sitting near my frens... yi yong was like in front of mi... always borrow HW from them to copy... XW was beside mi, then can't remember much liao... we always go to the next classroom for geo lessons/hist... quite an unused place... maybe even haunted... cause its an empty class room... that time our class still on the 4th floor... had to climb up and down... tiring...

the class had a fun time bullying the A.math teacher if i remember clearly... mr. ???? can't remember... but his teacher was not impressive/effective/gd... end up that the subject i failed all the time... i was also struggling with the other sujects... dunno wat's the problem... think cannot adapt to the next subjects... strugglinh with all the subjects... yr end juz managed to scraped thru to sec 4... at 1st it was rumoured tat those bottom position ppl maybe relocated to 4/7 or 4/8... meaning kick out of the pure sci class la... but luckily didn't happen... i failed like 1 or 2 subjects... aver. 50+ marks... 5th place above last... i also didn't have much frens in this new class except those sitting close to mi...

sad... darkest time of my studies tat time.. moreover there was also mis-understanding with a fren... tat person like ignored mi for the yr end part of sec 3 and the beginning of sec4.... luckily i was forgiven and we remained frens again... i dunno y lor... maybe tat person too sensitive... or i said the wrong things again lor...

at the start of sec 4 everyone was rushing to choose their places in class... and we move into the new block, 3rd floor... when my frens and i got in class.. there was not much places to choose from already lor... somemore had to make new rows to settle us in... end up sitting beside tat person i made angry, again... lolz... this time around everyone seems to be getting more socialable... or izzit mi onli...? got to noe the others in class as well...
got one time a gal ask mi if i wanna chat on the phone... i was like ok lor... tat time chat for an hour or so... long chat... can't remember wat we chat about... but i was nice to chat with someone... tat person was the 1st person i ever chat with on the phone lor... rite till now no one has even called mi to chat... a decent chat was all i wan... but no one ever asked... lolz... the others whom i talked through the phone didn't touch about life, relationship or such... nice person tat person was(not saying names to protect identity...)

there was also the OBS 5days camp... i was chosen because i was a CCA leader, vice capt in badminton. think it happened during sec3 or early sec4... was quite a fun yet unpleasent trip... had some nice ppl in the grp(ghandi)... serene, hui kim... can't remember liao.. lolz... though had a fun time there... tanning my skin.. there's this bastard nearly end my family line...! i was paired with serene for climbing obstacles(logs hanging from ceiling).. as this is the kind of obstacles tat need partners' help and the distance betw each logs keeps getting wider... so i climbed up the log so as to try help her up... cause i can climb up and she has problems... then i decided to use my strength to pull her up... i asked whether is it ok for mi to grab her hand and pull her... she said ok... but i dunno whether i was painful or not... then we complete the obstacles due to my strenght...hehe... due the bad part came... tat bastard, he was the belayer... when lowering mi down from heights... he keep jerking and i can see tat he did it on purpose lor... then the groin area was in pain due to the jerking lor... from tat time onwards my hatred on him grew...

on grp was like veri not gumming... second day doing kayaking... i also lost my specticles... because the kayak i was on was pushed open suddenly into the sea and my buddy cannot contribute in keeping the kayak balanced... in the end the kayak overturn and i lost my specs... the holder can't keep my specs with mi... my mood was veri downed the whole day... we continue the kayaking and i had to continue to keep the kayak balanced the whole journey... then my knee was scratched my the fibre-glass...

luckily one of the intructors lend mi her spare glasses... so i was not sent back to mainland and remained to continue this obs course... i was nearly killed again during one of the sections... tat was the night expedition... i was struggled b the neck b 2 gals...! we were blind-folded, 2 grps together, wee jie's grp joined us... being blinded, we were led in 2s on a journey... then the 2 gals behind mi, hui kim and jaslin, being scared pulled my shirt.... both were pulling like mad lor... lolz... then i nearly suffocated because of them... lolz... then i was the single person journey in the dark... onli with string as guide we moved on to a gathering place in the woods... darkness surround us... quite a nice experience as it was quite...

then there was the land expedition where i found out tat i cannot swim(trap water) while swimming in the quarry as my knee was in pain, the bones were like rubbing against each other... tat time we also missed our destination as we took the wrong/early turn and came into another site where the land was difficult to pitch tents... started to rain be4 everyone had their tent up... due to the wrong turn also... our journey was greeted by bees and bee hive... quite scary... but no one got hurt or anything... tat's about the OBS camp... tat instructor of mine looked like a past TV actor... he also know tat there was tension in this grp of ours... he had a chat with us be4 our camp was over... a nice experience...

then came came another camp, the ponggol came where those who went to the OBS were asked to help out with the sec 3 camps(we were in sec4)... tat time then found out tat amirah was veri blur lor... she was helping mi belaying then she forget to release the rope to a certain length... then cannot lower the person climbing... had to remind her a couple of times.. dunno y her mind wander off... i also had some off days as i was blur also lor... but no harm was cause... had a fun time helping... but one night when all was sleeping... my ankle was suddenly in pain... then rain followed soon... tat was the 'Feng Shi' i was talking about the other time... the rain detector... then we had no place to slp lor... the grd was flooded with rain water... some slp while standing(tat includes mi) while others have chairs to sit on... the poor thing was the sec3 whom had to stay tat the big tent in the cold... tat's wat the teachers said to us, saying we are in a better state than the sec3s... tat time i suddenly have stomachache lor... then had to ta han the whole morning until i get home... dun wanna use outside toilets... this ponggol camp was the last one it will be held at tat camp site... we were lucky to be there...

while some of us are helping at the camps... then other sec4 went to st. john's island/ other island for their own camp.. they had fun time there lor... so sad we cannot join them...

another incident also worsen m frenship with a person... tat person totally ignore mi and my sms of forgiveness and explainings... haiz... happened at the prelims some more... haiz... didn't care much lor... prelim got 16... wanted to score lower pts to get into SAJC... but in the end got the worse and scored onli 20... but had to thanks my frens wee, YY, peter, ck, kc for helping mi during preparation for the actual O-lvl... we tried to go kiat house after sch to do other sch's o-lvl paper... can't go his hse too often as his mother dun allow... but this grp study really helped mi alot on my A-maths... we always try to rush finish the papers so as to play Dai Dee... lolz... got one time we finish a-maths paper in less tat 50min... tat was like a 2 hr paper lor... chiong so fast juz to play dai dee... lolz... my a-math from always fail then finally get a C6, a pass, in o-lvl... but i failed my chem... sian½... everyone was like emotional about this results... i... juz nothing to feel about... still managed to get the minimum jc entry points...

ANd there was the 4/6 chalet... it was fun yet boring... cause most of the time the class was seperate... the gals took the bigger room... then mi, yy, wee, kiat played Bridge the whole night till early morning when the others go to see sun rise then we get place to slp... the didn't get to see any sun rise as they was pretty slow in getting the others to wake up... then the last night went to see the music fountain... it was all about majong, dai dee, bridge, eating in this chalet...

this is getting really lengthy... there's more to say but i think its time to end... there's also the incident where a fight nearl broke out during PE, i had to step in... and other interesting stuffs like we always rush down during recess so as to buy fried rice.... i was also unable to represent sch for inter-sch badminton due to the sch stupid policy of not allowing upper sec to take part so as to concentrate on studies... totally crap i say... there may be My Life part 4 (JC life)... watch out... the stupid tag-board fast work leh...!!!

劉若英 - 聽說?

曲：林健華 詞：葛大為 編：陳建麒
聽說 你身邊有新面孔聽說 你不再寂寞 聽說 你提起我
我過得不錯 忙碌中還有感動 嘗試愛過幾個人 面對愛 也誠實許多
只能被聽說 安排著 關於你我的 對的或錯的 兩個人 曾經相似的
卻以為都變了 只能靠聽說 各自愛著 不需要證明 當時決定是錯的
想著聯絡 不如心底遠遠問候 最美麗 莫過於聽說你 還回憶
其實我也感激 當我聽說你還相信愛情 聽說 我巷口你常經過 聽說
你厭倦寂寞 聽說 你問候我 聽說 我身邊有新面孔 聽說 你祝福了我

I think the chatting box is down... juz now went to see THE INCREDIBLES with the guys... be4 that was in sch for the last econs lectures... this morning rushed to the mkt near sch to withdraw some cash to purchase ee teck's grad nite tix... then reached sch liao he off hp already... meaning he in exam hall lor... so have to wait until they finish... econs got quite a few things to do lor...
SAJC promo paper 1&2, another set of paper 1, internet research on NWC, and d/l something from LMS... then she released us after 1030... quite early for her standards lor... then call ee teck but hp stll not on... went hall to see tat they still examining... he said ard 10.30 finish lor... bluff mi... then went to mkt eat with kevin and another 2 guys... finished my wan ton soup then teck called... rushed to buy newspaper be4 going to bus-stop meet him... then saw the other guys... they decided to go JEC eat porridge... i juz eaten lor... somemore got stomachache... sian... in the end still went with then and eat porridge... wat a full meal lor...
then they suddenly decided to watch movie.. was deciding betw incredibles and the shutter... then they chose incredibles... went to library to spend time away be4 heading for the cinema... the movie was nice lor... but... the beginning part of commercial/pixel story was veri lame lor... bouncing bunny( tiao tiao tu)... then naked sheep... when u r 'down', bounce ard and u become happy...? lolz... maybe can apply to u who's veri sad about their current exam... jia you... the baby incredible is cool lor... he's like the ultimate hero lor... can change to any form and possess alot of powers... cool... had a fun time laughing about the sheep...

anyone got job lobang...? think My Life - part 3 (upper sec) is coming soon... Jean: i think pei ling is trying to organise another 2/5 outing... u try organise with her lor... i posted at frenster.com... onli jing jing replied and gave some ideas... u wan talk in msn... cause tag-board down....
Seeing u all worrying and studying so hard for A-lvl i felt so gulity and sad tat i can't stand side-by-side and fight together... haiz... heard from radio this morning tat in japan... one company made a pillow juz for women and the pillow looked and feel like a man's arm... after complains for being discrimation against men... they also made a pillow tat looks and feel like woman thigh covered by skirt... they say the touch feel like the real thing... sounds cool...