[ I need digi cam for my bunkmates passing out parade... can anyone help mi...?]
As we grow older... there are more and more toubles in life... some can be overcome... some waiting to be solve... while others will remain a problem... how i wish to blog on every details of my life... but there are restrictions everywhere and not all ppl like to see wat u blog... of course u can say i can ignore those things... but can i really..? well to a large extent i will...
this past week... i've been trying to organise 2/5 activities... a gathering of sort.. why...? coz tat time i saw eileen at OCS cook hse... i realised tat we haven been in contact for a long time le... alot of things may have happen, lots of changes tat the class have been thru... i feel tat it's time for us to bond again... but its easier said than done...
everytime when trying to organise things... big or small event... problems will occur... mainly its due to the people involved... i understand its hard to gather everyone for a meet up... coz everyone have their own things to do and not everyone is free on the same day... tat's y i nvr insist than everyone muz make it... juz hope that those able to do it can enjoy themselves during the gathering...
i've asked ard... for suggestions... chalet, boardgames cafe, buffet, sentosa....
chalet is not quite a good option... as the guys are still in NS or going soon... time is not on their side... its either weekend of nothing... as its onli a few days before june starts... the june holiday crowd have already pre-booked most of the available chalet slots ard the island... the initial plan was to have a gathering together to celebrate with jean's birthday... but the slots of chalet is from sun to tues... which makes it quite impossible for most ppl to join us...
then another idea struck mi was tat peter's birthday also coming on july 14... and its a friday... and chalet slots are available then... how..? to book or not to book..? been trying to ask peter... but he nvr reply on that... will everyone be free then..? can we have enuff ppl to make it enjoyable yet not burn a hole in the pocket..?
now the option is to go for a buffet... which buffet we still not confirm yet... coz i dunno anyone have any objects or not... the one i saw on newspaper was joaquim international japanese buffet... and we set it on 11 june... most of the replies i got was 'not sure if can make it'... 'need to wait for a later date to confirm'... at least its not a straight rejections... but i still didn't get replies from some ppl... especially tat kiat... always like tat... dun wan reply mi... anyway.. is there any objection for the joaquim buffet...? $28.90nett...
why 2/5 gathering..? some may ask... its a group where there's still contact with... but minimum... for mi frens are important part of life... we have been classmates for 2 yrs but will be frens for many more yrs... most of the time going out is with my current jc frens... and seems like sec sch frens are a grp tat seems to be forgotten as time passes... u will onli stick to ur own small grp for most of the time... all i can say tat not everyone is forgotten...
well... for my pri sch frens... err... they are a little too far to reached... and i dun have tat capability to take up this task...
as i'm struggling to get used to my work... a mth have actually past... 6 duties a week... overtime almost everyday... all things are not smooth... as i may soon sign extra... y..? and mistake by someone, together with my lapse in responsibility... think my trust for ppl may soon take a new perspective... can we really trust a person to do his job...? carelessness maybe... maybe i'm influenced by the ppl there... which i shouldn't... for my last duty.. i tried to lock everything and i do lock up everything... i prefer doing my required job rather than taking my chances... that's for weekdays... but for weekend.. from the past one i did... i was told tat if the friday personnel did not do his job well... everyone leading to the end of the week will suffer... now i noe tat... and i will not make the same mistake again... hopefully its the last time this will happen to mi...
i dunno wat happen but i teaches mi to take nothing for granted... no matter how reliable tat person may be... u still have to do checks and take ur own responsibility... coz things will nvr be smooth for u all the time... also... the past week have coz recurrence to my old injury and pain to my legs... all these constant walking and loads certainly does not help solve the problem or help my recovery... i hope tat my MMI appointment will come soon and get a solution soon...
Sunday, May 28, 2006
Saturday, May 20, 2006
Rejects rejecting rejected...
关心是无价，为何把它当成多余的？
hmm... really... i have to stay recording my thoughts immediately when i think of something... or else i will forget wat i wanna blog about...
for u all who's concern about my depressing and demoralising title at my messenger... dun be... if u are disturbed... dun be... dun care and dun read if u can... i dun really wish to explain or say anything about it... juz let it be... all i can say is tat i am who i am and u ppl dun and won't feel how i feel...
you may say that i'm more fortunate than alot of ppl out there... but u really have to think... there will always be ppl more worse of than u and it really doesn't worth the time to complain about... also... there will be ppl more well off than u... so when will the comparing ever stop...? if i dun put these feelings out in words... where do u expect mi to express myself...? store in my heart..? my mind...? end up hurting myself internally..? dun worth it does it..?
if wanna compare also compare with the frens around mi... same education... same age... but different story.. different life... but i'm not going to get there as it will not get anywhere...
i dun blog juz to post about happy things... this blog is about my life... and my life is full of ups and down... though i've been blogging less and less.. but i feel that i still have to blog wat i wanna blog about... if u suit everything to others... wat's the point of doing things...? u ppl also said be4... juz be myself...
NTU rejected mi... my fren dislike mi... no one like mi... are u ppl happy..? seems like the more i do... the more backlash i get.. haiz... i dun do things to please u ppl ok...
hmm... really... i have to stay recording my thoughts immediately when i think of something... or else i will forget wat i wanna blog about...
for u all who's concern about my depressing and demoralising title at my messenger... dun be... if u are disturbed... dun be... dun care and dun read if u can... i dun really wish to explain or say anything about it... juz let it be... all i can say is tat i am who i am and u ppl dun and won't feel how i feel...
you may say that i'm more fortunate than alot of ppl out there... but u really have to think... there will always be ppl more worse of than u and it really doesn't worth the time to complain about... also... there will be ppl more well off than u... so when will the comparing ever stop...? if i dun put these feelings out in words... where do u expect mi to express myself...? store in my heart..? my mind...? end up hurting myself internally..? dun worth it does it..?
if wanna compare also compare with the frens around mi... same education... same age... but different story.. different life... but i'm not going to get there as it will not get anywhere...
i dun blog juz to post about happy things... this blog is about my life... and my life is full of ups and down... though i've been blogging less and less.. but i feel that i still have to blog wat i wanna blog about... if u suit everything to others... wat's the point of doing things...? u ppl also said be4... juz be myself...
NTU rejected mi... my fren dislike mi... no one like mi... are u ppl happy..? seems like the more i do... the more backlash i get.. haiz... i dun do things to please u ppl ok...
Thursday, May 18, 2006
Tiring Day
Was really tired in the past few days...
yesterday set water point for the students from 2 vocation... one playing games... then other having half marathon run... back at college at 7pm...
today... due to some event... program... my tiring work starts after my lunch... collected ice... bring tables... clean tables... walk here... rush there... all around the place coz the other storeman M(I)A... things here and there hae to settle for the whole things to run smoothly... then evening head down to the Mess for the dinner thingy... did some serving... waiting for the whole event to end... finally started to clean up at 9+... back at college... still need to clean the place at the lounge... then booked cab to go home.. coz by then already over 10pm... can make claims for transport...
furthermore... tml i'm doing duty... heard no need to set water point tml... hope nothing much to do except doing the clean up and keeping of things tml... hope i can rest well and carry out my duty tml... then on sat morning have to rush down to get my passport settled...
i taking leave on 6th june... to attend my platoon mates' POP...
one thing happened today...
while i was at the cookhouse waiting for the queue to lessen... i saw eileen...!!!! eileen sow...!!! lolz... after talking for a while... she said tat she signed on... i didn't know tat...!?!?
think its time for another gathering for the class of 2/5... dun u guys agree...?
yesterday set water point for the students from 2 vocation... one playing games... then other having half marathon run... back at college at 7pm...
today... due to some event... program... my tiring work starts after my lunch... collected ice... bring tables... clean tables... walk here... rush there... all around the place coz the other storeman M(I)A... things here and there hae to settle for the whole things to run smoothly... then evening head down to the Mess for the dinner thingy... did some serving... waiting for the whole event to end... finally started to clean up at 9+... back at college... still need to clean the place at the lounge... then booked cab to go home.. coz by then already over 10pm... can make claims for transport...
furthermore... tml i'm doing duty... heard no need to set water point tml... hope nothing much to do except doing the clean up and keeping of things tml... hope i can rest well and carry out my duty tml... then on sat morning have to rush down to get my passport settled...
i taking leave on 6th june... to attend my platoon mates' POP...
one thing happened today...
while i was at the cookhouse waiting for the queue to lessen... i saw eileen...!!!! eileen sow...!!! lolz... after talking for a while... she said tat she signed on... i didn't know tat...!?!?
think its time for another gathering for the class of 2/5... dun u guys agree...?
Monday, May 15, 2006
Too tired...
didn't blog anything in the past few days as i no mood... last wed was on duty... then thurs morning finish... but i was supposed to to take a full day off on thurs... but by the time i reach home.. its about 11++ le... wat happened...?
waited for the bus outside sg discovery centre.. for a while.. transfer to bus 99 at another bus stop.. waited for like half an hour... then when the bus was like 3-4 stops away from the one i'm alighting... the bus broke down... waited for like another 10 mins be4 everyone alight the bus and head their own way.. i follow out of the broken bus and head for the nearest bus stop and reach home at 11+...
haiz.. then the rest of the day stayed at home.. try to rest and plan for friday's activity.. coz vesak day.. end up meeting with peter... jeremy and evan to go shopping at town and eat dinner... wee put aeroplane... walked ard suntec and marina sq... jeremy was looking for a new wallet... i was looking for a polo shirt... bought one at why pay more shop...
after that walked ard try to decide wat to eat... then settled on marche... the food there is nice... but quite ex... at 1st thought need to pay GST and all those taxes... but actually its already calculated in the price of the food le... our bill $105... for 4 person... but actually shld have had desserts to be more fillings.. haha..
then walked abt to the twin durians... esplanade... got some band doing sound test... walked to the roof... then evan did the most daring thing tat he can do in public with his PSP... ask him if u wanna know... after tat still early.. so went to place pool... after a few games then took shuttle bus back to CK tang there to take our respective buses home..
sat went to place soccer with them... veri tiring... coz the court quite big... after tat went home after lunch and pool again...
then came the most irritating part... i have to book in to do duty on sunday... i actually feel ok lor... doing duty on weekend... but the problem was the event be4 i actually started doing duty... coz of some irresponsible ppl... i reach my place at 7.45... but can onli get in after 8.30am... in between i was wandering ard trying to find ways to get in and contact the ppl inside... after tat the whole day was boring yet tiring..
then today can't get a good rest.. then the whole day was veri shag... not in the condition to do work at all... whole day like cannot concentrate to work... then when free can't even rest properly... coz the phone kept ringing and the clerk was not ard... lucky i got someone to help mi cover my water point today... if not i'll be going crazy or mad if i continue to set the water point.. coz i was having headache and getting dizzy... hopefully they did a ok job...
enuff of tat... this week will be very packed... duty on friday also... haiz... then thurs busy...
who wanna catch da vinci code...? on saturday...?
waited for the bus outside sg discovery centre.. for a while.. transfer to bus 99 at another bus stop.. waited for like half an hour... then when the bus was like 3-4 stops away from the one i'm alighting... the bus broke down... waited for like another 10 mins be4 everyone alight the bus and head their own way.. i follow out of the broken bus and head for the nearest bus stop and reach home at 11+...
haiz.. then the rest of the day stayed at home.. try to rest and plan for friday's activity.. coz vesak day.. end up meeting with peter... jeremy and evan to go shopping at town and eat dinner... wee put aeroplane... walked ard suntec and marina sq... jeremy was looking for a new wallet... i was looking for a polo shirt... bought one at why pay more shop...
after that walked ard try to decide wat to eat... then settled on marche... the food there is nice... but quite ex... at 1st thought need to pay GST and all those taxes... but actually its already calculated in the price of the food le... our bill $105... for 4 person... but actually shld have had desserts to be more fillings.. haha..
then walked abt to the twin durians... esplanade... got some band doing sound test... walked to the roof... then evan did the most daring thing tat he can do in public with his PSP... ask him if u wanna know... after tat still early.. so went to place pool... after a few games then took shuttle bus back to CK tang there to take our respective buses home..
sat went to place soccer with them... veri tiring... coz the court quite big... after tat went home after lunch and pool again...
then came the most irritating part... i have to book in to do duty on sunday... i actually feel ok lor... doing duty on weekend... but the problem was the event be4 i actually started doing duty... coz of some irresponsible ppl... i reach my place at 7.45... but can onli get in after 8.30am... in between i was wandering ard trying to find ways to get in and contact the ppl inside... after tat the whole day was boring yet tiring..
then today can't get a good rest.. then the whole day was veri shag... not in the condition to do work at all... whole day like cannot concentrate to work... then when free can't even rest properly... coz the phone kept ringing and the clerk was not ard... lucky i got someone to help mi cover my water point today... if not i'll be going crazy or mad if i continue to set the water point.. coz i was having headache and getting dizzy... hopefully they did a ok job...
enuff of tat... this week will be very packed... duty on friday also... haiz... then thurs busy...
who wanna catch da vinci code...? on saturday...?
Saturday, May 13, 2006
Friday, May 12, 2006
94 weeks more till ORD
haha... tat is so freaking long...
Waiting - for my passport application to go thru and collect it
- for my medical appointment at MMI, 030706
- for the chance to meet up with my frens... gathering anyone..? pri sch..? sec sch...? jc...?NS bunk mates...?
- for the chance to fly overseas with my frens... i need to save up and get the chance to clear block leave...
- for some change at work... for the better...
- for my bunkmates to POP... lolz... 060606
- for love... for her...
I've been working like overtime everyday.. and most of the time i'm alone doing the water point... why...? my upper study took urgent leave... medical leave... all sorts of things.. then left everything for mi to do... moreover he going for course till the end of month... somemore i still got so many things to learn and not taught... think i somewhere along the way gonna screw up and sign extra... haiz... on 18 got some event.. then muz stay until like 10pm... then i 19th still got duty... haiz...
how to survive as the onli storeman..? most of the ppl there not as helpful... they dun offer help unless the superior ask them to.... enuff of tat... u wan noe more can ask mi personally... its not appropriate to talk tat much online... One important thing is tat my legs are aching again... pain... coz doing duty i have to walk ard alot... its quite hurtful to my legs... my ankles are hurting most now... how long can such thing last...? i think the ppl doing the posting are irresponsible to post ppl to places with checking whether their conditions are suitable for the vocationa and job they will be in...
hmm... wondering when i can clear my 14days leave...? feeling like going oversea leh... 1 problem i dun have passport now... the new one dunno when i can go collect... another prob is money... need to save for my own trip... another one is... wait for the others to ORD and go together..? haha... or go for a short trip to malaysia...? hmm...? nvr been to oversea alone without parents be4...
its been very hard to get frens to go out... maybe i'll be force to go out alone... can't stand staying at home all day with onli the com and tv with mi... sunday duty again... whole day will be trapped at the college... haiz...
err... crap... forget wat to blog again... brain dead... think i need some rest... yesterday duty nvr sleep well... woke at 2am... 4 am.. 5+am... then 5.45am wake up to start work...
introducing... Silly things i did in the past... currently onli thought of this one...
SILLY THINGS OF THE PAST
u noe those walkie talkie..? for kids to play... i used to have one as well... one of its special function is for mi to listen to radio... how..? i taped up the 'hold and talk' button on one of the talkie... and put at my radio... the other one i will bring like to the toilet with mi... tat's how i listen to radio using a silly method.. haha...
luckily nowadays... hp have radio and loudspeaker function... i no longer need to resort to 'walkie talkie'... lolz...
have a nice day...
PS: call mi out when u are free... thankz... i dun wanna bore at home...
Waiting - for my passport application to go thru and collect it
- for my medical appointment at MMI, 030706
- for the chance to meet up with my frens... gathering anyone..? pri sch..? sec sch...? jc...?NS bunk mates...?
- for the chance to fly overseas with my frens... i need to save up and get the chance to clear block leave...
- for some change at work... for the better...
- for my bunkmates to POP... lolz... 060606
- for love... for her...
I've been working like overtime everyday.. and most of the time i'm alone doing the water point... why...? my upper study took urgent leave... medical leave... all sorts of things.. then left everything for mi to do... moreover he going for course till the end of month... somemore i still got so many things to learn and not taught... think i somewhere along the way gonna screw up and sign extra... haiz... on 18 got some event.. then muz stay until like 10pm... then i 19th still got duty... haiz...
how to survive as the onli storeman..? most of the ppl there not as helpful... they dun offer help unless the superior ask them to.... enuff of tat... u wan noe more can ask mi personally... its not appropriate to talk tat much online... One important thing is tat my legs are aching again... pain... coz doing duty i have to walk ard alot... its quite hurtful to my legs... my ankles are hurting most now... how long can such thing last...? i think the ppl doing the posting are irresponsible to post ppl to places with checking whether their conditions are suitable for the vocationa and job they will be in...
hmm... wondering when i can clear my 14days leave...? feeling like going oversea leh... 1 problem i dun have passport now... the new one dunno when i can go collect... another prob is money... need to save for my own trip... another one is... wait for the others to ORD and go together..? haha... or go for a short trip to malaysia...? hmm...? nvr been to oversea alone without parents be4...
its been very hard to get frens to go out... maybe i'll be force to go out alone... can't stand staying at home all day with onli the com and tv with mi... sunday duty again... whole day will be trapped at the college... haiz...
err... crap... forget wat to blog again... brain dead... think i need some rest... yesterday duty nvr sleep well... woke at 2am... 4 am.. 5+am... then 5.45am wake up to start work...
introducing... Silly things i did in the past... currently onli thought of this one...
SILLY THINGS OF THE PAST
u noe those walkie talkie..? for kids to play... i used to have one as well... one of its special function is for mi to listen to radio... how..? i taped up the 'hold and talk' button on one of the talkie... and put at my radio... the other one i will bring like to the toilet with mi... tat's how i listen to radio using a silly method.. haha...
luckily nowadays... hp have radio and loudspeaker function... i no longer need to resort to 'walkie talkie'... lolz...
have a nice day...
PS: call mi out when u are free... thankz... i dun wanna bore at home...
Sunday, May 07, 2006
These few days....
I juz finished watching Scary Movie 4... its damn super lame... combining all the past yrs' movies and give a twist to it... the main story is using the war of the world's plot... (3 popcorns) juz for the lame-ness...
another movie i caught yesterday was Mission Impossible 3... its quite nice... lots of action... one thing i still in doubt is why the explosion of the missile coz cruise to fly and hit the car...? hmm... for effect...? flying forward will not be as interesting.... all in all... its a very nice action packed film... once again with twist's'... i predicted tat someway into the movie... for those who caught it u will noe... for others... go catch it... (4 popcorns)
been resting at home so as to recover from my illness... so far not much improvement... the doc says it will take time even if u finish the medicine... then she gave mi the same cough syrup again...
one topic pop up while we having our lunch after out activities... guess wat..? marriage... university life... and ORD... which is so far away for mi... but so close to them... i still got 1 yr and 10mths to go... haiz...
HQ's post also talked a bit about marriage... as in 10, 20, or even 30 yrs down the road... will we still be meeting up occasionally to chit chat...? with gray hairs...? childrens..? lolz... seems far... but time really do flies... i was wondering... which of us frens will get married 1st...? who's wedding dinner will we be attending in the next 10 yrs...? its worth the thought...
Uni life is coming close to my frens... most of them going to ORD in 6mths time... in november... hearing them all going to go for holiday trips really make mi envy... i also wanna go oversea... heard tat taiwan is a very nice place...
then they were discussing whether to enter during april or july... like most guys... their main purpose is to see uni gals... haha... coz some of them complaining tat *cough* the gals at their previous pri to JC sch a bit cmi...*cough* well... everyone's taste is different... so i'll not response to tat quote... a few of them are still single... tat's why complaining..?
saw one of my platoon mates from tekong yesterday while at wistma... wondering how's their life at tekong... in a months time... they will POP... really wished to attend tat... congrat them... hopefully they will have some gathering during their block leaves...
duty on mother's days...
another movie i caught yesterday was Mission Impossible 3... its quite nice... lots of action... one thing i still in doubt is why the explosion of the missile coz cruise to fly and hit the car...? hmm... for effect...? flying forward will not be as interesting.... all in all... its a very nice action packed film... once again with twist's'... i predicted tat someway into the movie... for those who caught it u will noe... for others... go catch it... (4 popcorns)
been resting at home so as to recover from my illness... so far not much improvement... the doc says it will take time even if u finish the medicine... then she gave mi the same cough syrup again...
one topic pop up while we having our lunch after out activities... guess wat..? marriage... university life... and ORD... which is so far away for mi... but so close to them... i still got 1 yr and 10mths to go... haiz...
HQ's post also talked a bit about marriage... as in 10, 20, or even 30 yrs down the road... will we still be meeting up occasionally to chit chat...? with gray hairs...? childrens..? lolz... seems far... but time really do flies... i was wondering... which of us frens will get married 1st...? who's wedding dinner will we be attending in the next 10 yrs...? its worth the thought...
Uni life is coming close to my frens... most of them going to ORD in 6mths time... in november... hearing them all going to go for holiday trips really make mi envy... i also wanna go oversea... heard tat taiwan is a very nice place...
then they were discussing whether to enter during april or july... like most guys... their main purpose is to see uni gals... haha... coz some of them complaining tat *cough* the gals at their previous pri to JC sch a bit cmi...*cough* well... everyone's taste is different... so i'll not response to tat quote... a few of them are still single... tat's why complaining..?
saw one of my platoon mates from tekong yesterday while at wistma... wondering how's their life at tekong... in a months time... they will POP... really wished to attend tat... congrat them... hopefully they will have some gathering during their block leaves...
duty on mother's days...
Thursday, May 04, 2006
Tired... sicked... hurted...
tired of the things happening around mi... tired from the things i'm doing... tired... tat's wat my legs telling mi... i so tired... i need some rest...
sicked of this repetitive life i'm living... sicked of being alone in my life... sicked... tat's wat my body telling mi... i so sicked... i need to recover...
Hurted by words tat are sharp... hurted non physically... but mentally... hurted... tat's wat my feeling telling... of all things said by others... i won't mind... but from someone close... it really hurts...
sicked of this repetitive life i'm living... sicked of being alone in my life... sicked... tat's wat my body telling mi... i so sicked... i need to recover...
Hurted by words tat are sharp... hurted non physically... but mentally... hurted... tat's wat my feeling telling... of all things said by others... i won't mind... but from someone close... it really hurts...
Monday, May 01, 2006
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