wat happened this week..

SUNDAY - Book in with the rest of my platoon... rested after going back to bunk...

Monday - Went to see MO after discovering tat my right big toe is bruised and swollen... i bend my toe but can't see the vein and its painful..! i was given excuse lower limb and footwear for 7days...
after tat i had to book out for my specialist appointment at NUH... rushed back home and had to finish my lunch fast and chiong to NUH... late by 2 min... lolz... 4pm the appointment.. waited for ard 30mins outside... went in and was out in less than 5min... here's wat happened inside....

Doc: how's ur legs..?
JT: its painful... i'm struggling with my activities...
Doc: raise ur leg... the other leg... hmm.. ok.. i'll give u excuse running for 1 year(i was like... huh..? again..?)
JT: ... ($&^%#A&^)
JT: i also have problem swimming... my right knee hurts when kicking under water...
Doc: the pain will go off... dun worry...
JT: ...($^&A&%#*&)
Of course it will go off la... not like i swim everytime wat... wat i wanna know is why it hurts during swimming...? and i wasn't given any answer... wat kind of specialist are u..?
Doc: go out and wait...
JT: ... (&^%A*@)

then while waiting outside... my queue number was flashing again.. so i went in...

Doc: y u here again..? go out go out....
JT: ...( @#&^@$@*) ... wat about other activities...? like road march and things...? coz ur excuse onli for running...?
Doc: Dun worry... go out and wait....
JT: ... (@&$A(%T*!$)

Left NUH at ard 5pm... went home and have dinner... sky was pretty dark... msg-ed her tell her its may rain soon...
after dinner then rush back to camp.. my attire wat C.V and sandals...

got back... the PS know my excuse from my specialist and he was rejoicing... then talked to him and he explained wat may happen to mi after i got this excuse from my specialist.. (@&$*@A&%@)

TUESDAY - excused from activities... went to washed the permstaff toilet... then in the afternoon when to see the MO to endorse the excuse from my specialist...

to summarised it...
1) he feels tat 1 yr excuse from running is ridiculous...
2) this is an straight OOT case... Out of Training... i cannot continue BMT with my platoon anymore... i will be posted out to do other things...
3) the MO is referring mi to see their own specialist at MMI... which is beside NUH... there... they will review my case... and they are definitely stricter than the stupid specialist at NUH...
4) currently the MO gave mi 84days excuse instead of the 1 yr given by my specialist...

I'm still waiting for them to call mi to tell mi the appointment with the MMI specialist...
waiting for my posting to do other things while i'm OOT... think i may need to re-course if i'm not able to downgrade... meaning i'll have to suffer PTP and BMT all over again... and i can say tat will be a painful experience...

Currently i'm emotionally wrecked...
1st... i'm OOT... i cannot train with my mates anymore... i cannot experience BMT... and i was onli 1 week away be4 BMT starts.,...

2nd... i'm still clueless whether my PES status will be reviewed and changed... cause definitely my condition will not recover in less than a year... i've been resting for the past 2 yrs already... so its no a temporary problem at hand... if i'm not downgraded... i will go thru PTP and BMT again abt 6mths be4 i ORD...

3rd... I concerned about my condition.... as i wasn't given any remedy and direct solutions to my problem... who can help mi...? i need solutions and not escape... the NUH specialist is trying to escape my case... constantly give mi excuse from running and not coming up with anythings to help mi... yes.. he did do something... push the job to the physio and another leg specialist where i got my insoles... and it doesn't help.. X-ray didn't find any abnormalities... wat thing else is there...? Cut off my leg...? wheel chair mi...?

suffering all these... i was really shocked and dunno wat to think... wanted to chat with frens... but rejected by most coz they are busy mugging for exams... and army life... no one to talked to on phone... wanted to call her... but perviously feel tat she's hesitant to chat on phone... so dropped the idea...

WED to FRI - began life as an OOT... stayed at the coy office... help out with the odd jobs... deliver documents and stuffs... read papers... listen to radio and watch a little tv at night... chat with the commanders inside... but tat's definitely not the kind of life i wan especially with my recruit life ended like tat... so sudden... ppl ard think tat i'm very happy as i can slack in the office...

pls lor... tat's onli partly true... who dun wanna slack... but once u remember tat u are still clouded by uncertainties... u won't feel tat happy anymore... and ppl kept calling mi names which is pissing mi off... chao geng...? try putting urself in my shoe... u think i wanna suffer in pain...? u ppl are too superficial... u will nvr go far judging ppl by wat u dun really understand...

u can say all u wan... call mi names.. say i chao geng... say tat u always garang... nah. its useless talking to those ignorant ppl...

LAstly... i'll like to wish those enlisting today or juz enlisted ppl to enjoy BMT... coz its the most memorable part of NS life... u get to see alot of ppl from other parts of SG tat's of all kinds..