wat hurts more? frens or my shoulder?

it takes hours to make a new fren...
months to develop a frenship...
yrs to become best frens...

but seconds or moments to destroy everything...

then it takes mths again to rebuild it....
and another moments to demolish it again... and again...

nobody understands, nor do they try or cares...

guess its better off alone... most of the time... like there's any choice...

after the sen sai 'tui-ing' of my left shoulder yesterday... i think it got a little worse... now its aching more painfully than usual... i'm feeling more of the jerking of my joints... how how..? dun really wanna go for surgery but how to solve the problem when doing my current job is juz making it worse...