Are u thinking wat i'm thinking...?

Nah... impossible... no one will come close to that... In my thoughts now...
1) i'm promoted to jc2, but can i really survive...? do i really have the quality to score for a place in university...?
2) alot of physical problems and injuries have been arising in the past few years... can i still compete in sports competitively...? will it be a problem in NS for mi..? y it took until last yr then i discover my flat-footed-ness...? haiz...
3) have i been a good fren...? is it really my problem tat i start to ignore my fren when they make mi angry...? do they really treat mi as their fren...? why do i always get the feeling tat my frens are distancing from mi slowly...?
4) is the cause of my retaining due to the ignoring of my frens last yr...? (i think i slacked to much le...)
5) 我 爱 的 人, 却 不 爱 我. 爱 我 的 人, 不 告 诉 我. i have liked/admired a couple of ppl in my life, but i'm always to slow to react/to afraid to act... either they already have bf or we lost contact already... ppl always say tat looks doesn't matter, wat matter most is the inner beauty... but first impression always matter... maybe i'm short... fat... but who cares... i'm who i'm and u either like it or leave it... lolz... crapping to myself again... who i like/admire doesn't matter to anyone but sometimes if tat person noes, she over-reacted to it... causing frenship to halt temporary... isn't it a compliment to be admired by ppl...? wat does it have to end up in the worst scenario... maybe no one has liked mi be4, tat's y i nvr noe... but one of my fren is still keeping a secret from mi, she knows a person how liked mi be4, in sec sch. but she say as a secret keeper, she cannot let the cat out of the bag... hence i ask no more... was i my behaviour tat scare tat person away in lower sec...? i wonder..? this i a rather long part...
6) wat kind of person am i really...? i noe i'm quiet... more introverted to others... than extrovert to some who noes mi better... i like to have fun, games, sports u name it... too reserved...? guess 当 局 者 迷 , 旁 观 者 清 . think u, my frens, are in a better position to judge mi...
7) Jay chou... i started to like him because some of his songs(the earlier ones) discribed my feeling when i'm downed or troubled... even till now... his songs give mi a strange familiarity... weird...
8) Christmas cards/new year cards/season greeting cards... i do write these to my frens, those who i really think are great frens... dun get sad if u dun receive one from mi, maybe i dunno ur address, give mi ur address and u maybe lucky enuff to receive it... about these cards... those who get them noes tat i uses calligraphy to write them, average handwriting but the thoughts are there. i've been writing to frens since pri 6 if i'm not wrong and switch to using calligraphy during sec 2 or 3 till last yr... its a way for mi to communicate with frens i see often/seldom/average... but tat's the way i find out how they are... its becoming a concern tat those return mails are declining... i'm not expecting everyone to spend their precious time to write to mi but its great to receive mail from frens knowing they still remember u... asking for ur well being... But is it time to put down my calligraphy pen and stop my annual affair with the greeting cards..? i still have quite a couple leftover, these cards though cheap do cost money, but i'm not concern much abt money matters... think i'm mummbling again... so... Is it time for mi to stop now...? wat's ur thought..?
Why i'm writing these things today are inspired my tat person who wrote a long post at tat person's blog, who's also troubled in her life, thoughts and feelings, guess u shld noe who la... no point saying more, juz wishing u to get better... dun be troubled.. u got frens like mi... whom no one ever approached for help when troubled (until recently...) its nice to pour out all ur thoughts so u have space for new things to come...
i also like to open up to anyone reading now( hope u haven fallen asleep reading), if u have something u like to ask about mi or wat crap... i will try to answer either in the weekend post or daily ones... thankz for those wasting time reading...